I will be moving on the suit case on the jet plane starting tomorrow.
Away to my hometown during weekend for general election was a good experience for me. Missing my vote the previous one. The political tsunami was a lot to be paused & reflected but we have to keep moving...
Today both my big man and I had a great time together pampering ourselves at Jentayu Spa in Damansara. We had a good chat about the election results and its implication also the blessing and the scary part while in the Gazebo after body massage. Well...I decided not to write about what we had discussed on political issue since I am thinking about the fresh and re-energise feeling after long hours spa treatment. We both need it after being drowning with workload, sickness (for big man) and the mind boggling matter to solve the issue of lil man's dontwannagotoschool syndrome. Now that lil man is holidaying at kampung, both big man & I have more time to focus on us and think of what to do next for lil man.
My dear friend, Hajjah N has now found the love of her life. We are looking forward to be at her wedding next two weeks. We are very happy for her. May Allah bless her and her other half with happinest of life together till the end..
Anggerik Merah
March 10, 2007 12:21am
Monday, March 10, 2008
Friday, February 29, 2008
About flower and it's smell..
Not any rated story....
Most often than not, I like to do a free show in front of my other half and test his spontaneous respond to my free show.
A couple days ago, while he was sitting on massage chair, as usual I openly exhibiting my show especially if I am dressing up for work or to go out... I asked him, if he ever felt bored of seing the same thing for many years. His response really make me smile. What he said is that...if you are given flower..all the time you want to smell it and kiss it... I was smiling to hear that response....
About flower and its smell..
Anggerik Merah
February 29, 2008, 2AM
Most often than not, I like to do a free show in front of my other half and test his spontaneous respond to my free show.
A couple days ago, while he was sitting on massage chair, as usual I openly exhibiting my show especially if I am dressing up for work or to go out... I asked him, if he ever felt bored of seing the same thing for many years. His response really make me smile. What he said is that...if you are given flower..all the time you want to smell it and kiss it... I was smiling to hear that response....
About flower and its smell..
Anggerik Merah
February 29, 2008, 2AM
Sunday, February 24, 2008
Simplify life
For my dear blogger friends who placed some comments in my previous entry, sorry that I did not answer one by one. Perhaps this entry could highlight some of my whereabouts.
I was on a long leave since Chinese New Year. Unplanned additional leave after CNY due to some pressing matters which need to be sorted out. Hard to write and share maybe because it is even harder to think about it. Nevertheless, life must go on…things happened in the past cannot be changed unless something similar to the movie “Back to the future”…
During my unplanned leave, my mind, body and soul are focused on thinking about what had happened in the past beyond my imagination and knowledge. Something which can’t be described through scientific or logical explanation. Closing the old chapters of life and placed it somewhere in the far corner is what is desirable and must do. Again, it is easy said than done but not impossible to do. What is important…forgive those who had make us suffered and may Allah showed them and us the right path in life.
Quote:
“The mystery of life is not a problem to be solved,
it is a reality to be lived.”...Van der Leeuwarden.
Back to office, much I have to catch up. Much traveling to be done for work related for the next two months. Alhamdullilah, even I am still in the midst of building back my inner strength and energy, I felt that I am healthy.
Quote,
" Strength doesn't come from physical capacity. It comes from indomitable will."... Mahatma Gandhi
Called my friend’s house today to finding out how is she doing. Managed to talk to her mother as she was upstairs praying. She went through her second series of chemo last Thursday according to her mother. She learned to manage herself better this time according to mother since she had her first experience during her first chemo. Her hair started to fall. I told her mother, I will visit her once I am free. Deep down in my heart, I wish I could gather my strength quickly enough so that I could visit her. I will need to avoid visiting others especially those who are critically ill if I was not well.
Reading some health magazine, this is what I found..
18 ways to simplify your life (source: Health magazine Jan/Feb 2008)
1. Think and write down what really matters to you (yes I did as part of my resolution)
2. Have short and long term goals (yes...somewhere)
3. Use online banking (I had practiced these long ago bcoz I hate waiting in the bank)
4. Make time for yourself (will do it more frequent)
5. Carry no more than 2 credit cards (yes, have one now but need another one for official travelling)
6. Identify bad habits (some may not be all)
7. Stop being a perfectionist (oh yes...but in some situaton is is needed!)
8. Don’t do other people’s work. Give up the “hero” mentality (yes...yes...)
9. Hire someone for chores you’re not fond of (must if got money)
10. Cut back on television time ( i m very selective on TV program)
11. Clean out your office and home (a must for me...if not the brain stuck)
12. Stop spending time with whiners ( ???)
13. Plan time for annual vacation (used to...not anymore for the last 4 years)
14. Carry a smaller wallet or purse (really?...why?)
15. Live closer to your work place (my wish list...right now my travelling time ranges from 1.5 - 3 hrs/day..sigh..)
16. Learn to say NO ( yes...I am now...)
17. Cut back on childrens’ planned activities ( ok..)
18. Track your expenses ( yes...definately..)
Will be back...
Feb 24, 9:30 pm
Tuesday, February 05, 2008
ERTI PERTEMUAN
Menerjah batas
Gelora pun berserpihan
Menghempaskan buih
Di lautan
Acapkali tumpas
Masih jua menyusuri
Arus pergolakan
Setianya
Begitulah adat mestinya hidup
Selagi jasad dan hayat berpaut
Rintangan harus bersahut
Benar kata
Jatuh bangun seorang lelaki
Bergantung siapa
Wanita di sisi
Mujur tuah nasib
Diri kita ketemui
Jikalaulah tidak
Mungkin tak ku sedari
Bukankah kita ini dicipta Tuhan
Sepasang tapi berlainan
Lemah sana, sini kekuatan
Masing-masing
Punyai bibit kelebihan
Supaya saling memerlukan
Bertemu demi menyulam
Cahaya nurani dan akal fikiran
Naluri serta perasaan
Menyingkap erti tangisan
Bukankah kita in dicipta Tuhan
Sepasang tapi berlainan
Lemah sini, sana kekuatan
Dirimu, diriku
Bagaikan pelita
Yang memercikkan sinar
Menyuluhi malam
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A beautiful lyric of song (singer: Ning Baizura & Jay Jay)...
Spending my weekend with the loves one was something I treasure...
Yesterday, I spent a couple hours at friend's house, to hold her hand, to assist her to go to toilet...Her first chemo seems to hit her badly. She lost epitite and fainted. Nevertheless, her fighting power is building up. Once in a while she mumbled about how can she sustain to face the remaining cycles of chemo. Quickly her mother comfort her and reminded her about the blessing from Allah to face this trial... It hurt inside to see her suffering but I have to put a strong face for her... pray that she will be strong enough to go through the process and Allah ease her pain.
But I am glad that spending time with her and her mother, does ease some of my intense headache I experience at the back of my head. I felt as if the blood vessels are going to explode. I do not know what caused it as I had been taking the antibiotic on and off to get rid of flu from my body. But I tried to relax as much as I could. Today, the pain is not as bad as yesterday.
Looking forward for balik kampung during Chinese New Year...To all bloggers friends...Enjoy the long holiday
Anggerik Merah
Tuesday, Jan 5 2008
Saturday, February 02, 2008
A simple celebration
We celebrated baba's birthday at Nandos...the three of us together. Lil man was so very excited about this celebration. At night, we bought a b'day cake and lil man prepared some simple food to celebrate baba's b'day again at homewith cake.
A short entry to capture a simple celebration..
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
Hakikat kehidupan
To all,
please extend your prayer and dua for Dr Hasanah's friend/patient so that she could continuosly be strong to face her predicament. Please read here.
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I was at HUKM on Sunday together with mak and ayah visiting my relative who was diagnosed with bone cancer. My first time at HUKM and also my first time after many years visiting cancer ward. The visit really left me my many thought about “hakikat kehidupan (fact of life)”. Seeing some who had to go through such a tough ordeal in life really break my heart and cut me deep inside. My relative, he is a school teacher with 3 small kids. He is very lucky to have a wife who has to keep shows strong courage to be at the husband side.
The patient just at the opposite side of my relative’s bed is not doing too well. She is a breast cancer sufferer. Had her last cycle of chemo and she is struggling and battling with her life. Her children and relative are around her to read surah Yassin to provide her the strength and comfort. I just can’t take off my eyes away from seeing her. I feel weak on my knee but I stand still to keep my courage seeing her suffering. My mind was traveling long way and every corner of thought about the fact of life and how Allah tested us with many different ways. At the time when sometimes we forgot about his existence and forgot that HE is the ultimate answer to our life. I am reminding myself of many times that I just take things for granted in remembering and devoting myself to HIM.
My photographic memory really left me which continuous thought of some close friends who have to go through similar ordeals. Sometimes I just don’t know how to behave and what to say whenever I meet these friends. All I know is to say SABAR, TAWAKAL & BE STRONG.
I called my officemate’s house today to let her know that I plan to stop over at her house after work to visit her. Her mother picked up the phone and she told me that my friend was warded to at the hospital again today to do some injection of medication on her other breast. I had a long chat with her mother…more of listening to what she is expressing about her daughter’s ordeal. Deep down in my heart, I feel so sad but I keep my courage up to also support her mother in return.
I came home and feel very exhausted. Maybe because of my first day of menses. And it was raining outside. I decided to postpone my visit to her house tomorrow since I feel like I am not physically fit. After dinner, I dropped myself on the bed and woke up at 2 am to refresh. At this hour, my thought goes to some blogger friends who I had been close with in my heart even if we never met each other in person…
What more…after glancing through my beloved blogger friend, HAS, blog entry here, I kept on reading it many many times and could not figure out if it is she or her patient. I wish that I could fly right at this hour to see her. My conversation with Dr Hasanah today confirm that the second portion of the story is about her friend who is now in the ward.
To all who come over here and drop by, please pray and dua for Dr. Hasanah's friend/patient so that she could be continuously strong to face her predicament…
Anggerik merah
4:30 AM,
January 29, 2008
please extend your prayer and dua for Dr Hasanah's friend/patient so that she could continuosly be strong to face her predicament. Please read here.
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I was at HUKM on Sunday together with mak and ayah visiting my relative who was diagnosed with bone cancer. My first time at HUKM and also my first time after many years visiting cancer ward. The visit really left me my many thought about “hakikat kehidupan (fact of life)”. Seeing some who had to go through such a tough ordeal in life really break my heart and cut me deep inside. My relative, he is a school teacher with 3 small kids. He is very lucky to have a wife who has to keep shows strong courage to be at the husband side.
The patient just at the opposite side of my relative’s bed is not doing too well. She is a breast cancer sufferer. Had her last cycle of chemo and she is struggling and battling with her life. Her children and relative are around her to read surah Yassin to provide her the strength and comfort. I just can’t take off my eyes away from seeing her. I feel weak on my knee but I stand still to keep my courage seeing her suffering. My mind was traveling long way and every corner of thought about the fact of life and how Allah tested us with many different ways. At the time when sometimes we forgot about his existence and forgot that HE is the ultimate answer to our life. I am reminding myself of many times that I just take things for granted in remembering and devoting myself to HIM.
My photographic memory really left me which continuous thought of some close friends who have to go through similar ordeals. Sometimes I just don’t know how to behave and what to say whenever I meet these friends. All I know is to say SABAR, TAWAKAL & BE STRONG.
I called my officemate’s house today to let her know that I plan to stop over at her house after work to visit her. Her mother picked up the phone and she told me that my friend was warded to at the hospital again today to do some injection of medication on her other breast. I had a long chat with her mother…more of listening to what she is expressing about her daughter’s ordeal. Deep down in my heart, I feel so sad but I keep my courage up to also support her mother in return.
I came home and feel very exhausted. Maybe because of my first day of menses. And it was raining outside. I decided to postpone my visit to her house tomorrow since I feel like I am not physically fit. After dinner, I dropped myself on the bed and woke up at 2 am to refresh. At this hour, my thought goes to some blogger friends who I had been close with in my heart even if we never met each other in person…
What more…after glancing through my beloved blogger friend, HAS, blog entry here, I kept on reading it many many times and could not figure out if it is she or her patient. I wish that I could fly right at this hour to see her. My conversation with Dr Hasanah today confirm that the second portion of the story is about her friend who is now in the ward.
To all who come over here and drop by, please pray and dua for Dr. Hasanah's friend/patient so that she could be continuously strong to face her predicament…
Anggerik merah
4:30 AM,
January 29, 2008
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
The return of IRON LADY
Where am I….
I was back from Negeri Dibawah Bayu last week, after 4 days being there to:
1. networking with Norwegian counterpart
2. renew relationship with those in he company
3. socializing (i.e lepak at Pasar malam with Ikan bakar together with old friends, lepak at Magellan Sutera harbour lounge to continue exchange the happening)
4. singing “Chan Mali Chan” together with several colleagues to pay back the courtesy of Norwegian sang their folk song.
5. boat cruise to chase patches of sunset and enjoying seawater wave and cooling wind
6. digging/tapping/exchanging/sharing technical knowledge with counterpart to explore mutual area of collaboration
7. lead the discussion and present the outcome of break-out session
8. sleep with panadol when needed at night
9. internet/email – hideaway for 4 days (seriously I didn’t check my email…)
10. shopping pearls, brooch, the goodies (udang kering, sotong kering, ikan kering…all the kering things pack in a box)
Why the return of Iron lady?
Because that is what they called me before…some says that I had changed to be different after about 4 months I am back home…then I am back to my used to be me. Personally I would feel that I am different from my used to be IRON LADY…this is a new IRON LADY because:
1. I am not as perfectionist as I used to be
2. I spend more on EQ part (brother Idham had written interesting topic on leadership)
3. I could take things in more relaxing mood rather than rushing
4. I can’t work extra mile as I used to be. My body can’t take it anymore. I have to stop when the signal indicate I need to stop. I value my health above all that I need to accomplish
5. I don’t take myself too serious…I did huha quite a lot to de-stress especially with those who love to huha
6. I am still diplomatic as I used to be and I stick to my opinion unless someone tell me it is wrong to say or do so.
7. Most importantly and the most valuable one, I gain back my memory. For some months in the past I didn’t realize that I had lost it.
Above all, to HIM I pray for guidance to lead my life as a humble human being…
The sad story…the first night I arrived at the
hotel, I was about to experience that depressing state…I cried and cried to let go…my body shivered. This was triggered by my bos’s sms on some issues during my traveling to Negeri Dibawah Bayu. I told my friend that this is really spoilt my day. But I will not let it conquer me. I don’t want to be pressured by that and I don’t want to be back in the state of depression. It will do no good to me and to anyone. We strive based on our capability and limit. Beyond that if it is damaging, we better stop and take a step back. Anyway, that is life…a mix of happy and sad stories..
Sometimes it is good to be IRON LADY, if not then people will just take advantage of us at work just to meet their KPI..
That is some insight of "the return of IRON LADY" from my experience..
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BTW...I almost forgot...
Today is my BIG MAN's b'day ...the XX year. When can I write about him? The passionate, sensitive, patient and loving significant half... Probably enough said about him..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DARLING.
I was back from Negeri Dibawah Bayu last week, after 4 days being there to:
1. networking with Norwegian counterpart2. renew relationship with those in he company
3. socializing (i.e lepak at Pasar malam with Ikan bakar together with old friends, lepak at Magellan Sutera harbour lounge to continue exchange the happening)
4. singing “Chan Mali Chan” together with several colleagues to pay back the courtesy of Norwegian sang their folk song.
5. boat cruise to chase patches of sunset and enjoying seawater wave and cooling wind
6. digging/tapping/exchanging/sharing technical knowledge with counterpart to explore mutual area of collaboration
7. lead the discussion and present the outcome of break-out session
8. sleep with panadol when needed at night
9. internet/email – hideaway for 4 days (seriously I didn’t check my email…)
10. shopping pearls, brooch, the goodies (udang kering, sotong kering, ikan kering…all the kering things pack in a box)
Why the return of Iron lady?
Because that is what they called me before…some says that I had changed to be different after about 4 months I am back home…then I am back to my used to be me. Personally I would feel that I am different from my used to be IRON LADY…this is a new IRON LADY because:
1. I am not as perfectionist as I used to be2. I spend more on EQ part (brother Idham had written interesting topic on leadership)
3. I could take things in more relaxing mood rather than rushing
4. I can’t work extra mile as I used to be. My body can’t take it anymore. I have to stop when the signal indicate I need to stop. I value my health above all that I need to accomplish
5. I don’t take myself too serious…I did huha quite a lot to de-stress especially with those who love to huha
6. I am still diplomatic as I used to be and I stick to my opinion unless someone tell me it is wrong to say or do so.
7. Most importantly and the most valuable one, I gain back my memory. For some months in the past I didn’t realize that I had lost it.
Above all, to HIM I pray for guidance to lead my life as a humble human being…
The sad story…the first night I arrived at the
hotel, I was about to experience that depressing state…I cried and cried to let go…my body shivered. This was triggered by my bos’s sms on some issues during my traveling to Negeri Dibawah Bayu. I told my friend that this is really spoilt my day. But I will not let it conquer me. I don’t want to be pressured by that and I don’t want to be back in the state of depression. It will do no good to me and to anyone. We strive based on our capability and limit. Beyond that if it is damaging, we better stop and take a step back. Anyway, that is life…a mix of happy and sad stories..Sometimes it is good to be IRON LADY, if not then people will just take advantage of us at work just to meet their KPI..
That is some insight of "the return of IRON LADY" from my experience..
--------------------------------------
BTW...I almost forgot...
Today is my BIG MAN's b'day ...the XX year. When can I write about him? The passionate, sensitive, patient and loving significant half... Probably enough said about him..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DARLING.
I LOVE YOU
THANK YOU FOR BEING PART OF MY LIFE
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