I was exhausted today. Mentally and physically exhausted. Maybe I am too engrossed with justifying my technical assessment. Trying to recall most of work which I had left 4 years ago is a pain. Most of it residing in the reports which was dispersed everywhere. It took me sometimes to track the copy of report.
Sitting down and recalling the details are really hard. But I do as much as I could. My mind is contemplating on how best I could project myself to justify something which I almost erase from my mind. My energy really drains out. I could not say that I had forgotten most of it. What I need right now is to create back that mental picture so that I could explain the subject matter well enough.
I am very fortunate to have some colleagues who are willing to spend time with me to refresh my old knowledge. May God bless them with more knowledge. There are also colleagues who just wish that I will never get through it. Such attitude is very destructive to the organization. I would never want to associate with that kind of people. And I pray to God not to let me be one of them. And I will not let them kill my motivation and drive. If I deserve it, it is mine.
I will be hiatus for a while…