Thursday, March 26, 2009

What storm?

Looking at my schedule since January I knew that March & April will be a hectic month for me as there are too many events, plans. I need to shedule properly to ensure enough energy to go through it. I am all prepared for it, I thougth. The history remain me also...there will always be unexpected things to happen... I leave it to HIM for things happen beyond my control.

Last week as I was ready to attend company event, several sms came from my cousin and then my brother to let me know about ayah. His blood test showed that he has kidney failure and need to be ready in case it get worst .... to be ready for dyalysis. This news shocked everyone in the family especially my mother. I had no idea at that point what to do. But I tried to remain calm and talked to ayah and mak. I had a thought of rushing back to kampung instead of proceed with company event. Honestly, I had been physically too tired to even think of driving home. I proceeded with company event that night so that I could have a nite rest at the hotel and plan to go back home the next day. After consultation with my cousin doctor and nurse who followed thru my ayah case, I was advise not to rush home since the urgency for ayah's dylysis is not now. His kidney only 15% functioning. I followed their advise.

The next day, mak told me that ayah agree to get second opinion on this matter. I make necessary arrangement for ayah to go back to Tawakal hospital to refer to specialist treated him 10 years ago for the left kidney failure due to Tuberculosis.

Due to my business travel to mexico city last sunday, my big man accompanied ayah to see specialist. I knew that big man will be able to calm down ayah and mak better than me for any shocking news. Big man is very calm and relax. For me, any shocking news sometimes make me speechless especially if it was about my family.

A mix feeling I had since I have to be away a week in the land of far away. Again I prayed to HIM to make things easy for me.

Since two weeks ago, office committment had been too much due to discussion on performance appraisal for staff in our group. In the absence of our leader (prolong medical leave) my colleagues and I had to take charged of the discussion which was not even in my expected to do list. For one week we worked from morning to night and weekend. On top of that, I was asked by my bigger bos to decide for taking up higher responsibility at other company subsidiary. Somehow my name was pop-up for potential candidate of that position. Without knowing what I am supposed to be responsibled I can't decide. This seems to be very serious as I was again and again ask to decide. Not is a promotion that nobody would not want to say no. But again...I must like to job to be able to perform. No point to suffer if what you are doing bring no satisfaction which money cannot buy.... I am yet to figure out the next step on this move.

Back to ayah case, result from specialist re-confirm ayah's condition. He will be closely monitored from now on...

I have another two days in Mexico city and will be arriving home on Sunday night. In the mean time, I will have to take things one at a time.... accept what is coming and deal with it... Only HE knows what is ahead of us..

Will share more about the beauty of life while travelling once I had a chance...

Salam from Mexico City...

Anggerik merah
6:45 am
March 26, 2009

Friday, March 20, 2009

Perfect storm?

It is this moment again when too many things came in at the same time. Really testing durability, resiliant etc etc...

Perfect storm? Riding perfect storm...surviving perfect storm... rising from perfect storm... It is so much inline with the 2 days forum I attended.

I am on the jet plane again... another faraway land to reach..

March 22, 2009
3:17 pm

Saturday, March 07, 2009

Change & switch button

I realised I had been talking too much offlate. How could I not be talking too much... Loads of what I need to do offlate required me to talk, defend, argue and state my opinion. This in some ways change me from doing much more listening and diplomatic to more extrovert and expressive. ...

As a result, my brain keep on working all the time and I even have difficulty to sleep. The switch on off button somehow lost somewhere...

I need to get back my switch on/off button, so that my mind could be back to calm and settle state when I need it and get better sleep too....Sleep deprivation is horrible....
BTW, my new collections of books:

1. Travelog HAJI- mengubah sempadan iman by Prof Muhd Kamil Ibrahim
2. Travelog Dakwah - meniti hari esok by Prof Muhd Kamil Ibrahim
3. CATS The nine lives of Innovation by Stephen C. Lundin
4. The Hard truth about Soft skills by Peggy Claus
5. The reader by Bernhard Schlink
6. Difficult conversations by Douglas Stone et. al.

"Walk your talk.. dance your story... celebrate your glory... " somewhat not anymore relevent for AM... but LIFE IS A JOURNEY...maybe more appropriate.
As we walk through life, we will encounter many different paths which sometimes wonder where does it take us... Whatever that path is, may it be the right path to go through...and the path that belong to HIM.

March 7, 2009
11:39 pm

Sunday, March 01, 2009

Down memory lane & back..

Beautiful weather...
A week really move too fast... All I realised is that I am back where I belong. Half a day wondering around town was kind of back to where I used to be..
Onboard flight KLM...
Had shower in MAS Golden lounge at Heathrow helped me to sleep all the way on the plane till just a few hours before touching down KLIA.

Down memory lane...

Chinta's family antique collection

Scenery from town and campus...

Let it Go (Will Young)

I have never been

afraid of being alone

It's somehow typical of

being a man - I know

But I woke in the night

My body full of fright

Could I provide for you?

Everything you've ever wanted

Could I really be

the man I promised Iwould be

And support you tenderly

Let it go... Let it go... Let it go

'Cause it's out of my control

Let it go...let it go

Don't have to have it all

Grips so tight it shatters

Only thing that matters

Only got one life

Heaven knows

What I'm stressing for

Let it go...let it go

It's the simple things

in life that bring me down

Like always being right

It leads to fights - oh no no

I'm running low on energy

The world keeps bugging me

And I keep thinking baby

How we gonna stay together

Can I really make a vow

I'm never gonna keep

See that's what's

bothering me - eee - eee

Let it go... Let it go... Let it go

I know you tell me

that I always think too much

And all that stupid stuff

Well, I've thought enough

Let it go... Let it go... Let it go...

'Cause it's out of my control

Don't have to have it all

Grips so tight it shatters

Only thing that matters

Only got one life

Heaven knows

What I'm stressing for

Let it go... Let it go

Anggerik merah; March 2, 2009

1:15 am (KL time)