Thursday, May 29, 2008


A journey…

I was back from business trip almost a week ago. Alhamdullilah everything went smoothly. Back to office, I was striving to get proposal done. After 3 nites stayed back at office, the draft was done and forwarded to my bosses for further discussion.

Weekend was great as we traveled back home for wedding. I was still haven’t got over from jetlag, nevertheless the spirit of being togetherness with everyone for the weeding really make me forget about my tiredness. The wedding was great.

Back to KL alone without family was really a lonely journey. I wish I could be with them for the school holiday.

My mind has not got over with some office issue. I kept on voicing out. Sometime, I felt that I wish someone said to me .. “Shut-up AM”…so that I could just go along with the red-tape and bureaucracy. Drain loads of my energy and enthusiasm.

Today, I was not feeling too well. Maybe I am still exhausted with no rest since many weeks. Body and mind are not coordinating well. I continued with hearing cd on mind programming hypnotize. I did this after lunch when my body and mind at the lowest productivity. It helps in some ways to relax body and mind.

I could not wait for weekend just to pamper myself with do nothing, rest and no long drive to office.

Tomorrow, I need to present to my CEO prior to presenting to VP..then next to company board of directors on awareness of technology that I am asked to spearhead.

I know that I had no been balancing between work and life for the last several weeks. My weekend was gone with traveling and I miss by bicycle too.

I pray that Allah continue giving me the strength and energy to do whatever I need to do….and to be healthy too… to give and receive more love..

I miss both of my big and little man…..and I felt so exhausted

1:15 AM
Friday May 30 2008

Saturday, May 17, 2008

On the move

Leaving Bergen tomorrow morning to Stavanger via boat. Will take about 4.5 hours to reach Stavanger. The only choice we have to escape from Bergen. The Bergen Airport is not funtioning since yesterday due to ground worker's strike. Flight cancelled. We need to get moving from here to Amsterdam. All those travel by flight are affected.
Rearranging our flight is quit a challenge. Nevertheless, we manage step by step. Good to have a colleague travel together. If I were alone, it would be tough.

Anggerik Merah
1:55 AM
Scandic Bergen City Hotel

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

From the land of beautiful Bergen

Greeting from the land of beautiful Bergen...
Anggerik Merah
4 am
May 14, 2008

Monday, May 05, 2008

Back to the future

I don't like to tell the story about how hectic life is... When too many things come at the same time, just pick it up and move on. Alhamdullilah, I am greatful to Allah for making it easy for me to just go to sleep and switch off from the worldly life. Both my big man and lil man all the time complaining about my loud snoring...hehehe... I guess it goes with age. Well...trying to deny the fact that I am not that old.... why do I have loud snore?

BTW, how do I control this? Of course I don't know how bad it is since I slept like nobody business. But...but...I am seriously worried that I have to travel long distance this weekend in business class...Oh no...what do I do. Should I warn my neighbour that I might annoy him/her. Oh my is embarrasing..

Anyway, I must figure out what to do with it...

I must remember (as quoted by Simah's father in law)... "a successful person is the one who are able to balance between life and career"... The reality is that my work is so demanding...Trying to balance is very challenging. A though came to my mind last I wish I have a million in my account and I don't have to work after all my committment are cleared...Keep dreaming...

Something to be shared at the point when I need a self talk:

This technique has big fancy words for it too:'Pseudo-Orientation in Time.'

Pick a problem you have been experiencing recently.

Look out in front of you and allow yourself to imagine a more resourceful, wiser you. You could even imagine that this future you is pure wisdom light, a fully perfected being! Why not, this is just an imagination experiment after all...

Now physically walk up into your future self, step inside and take a few moments to notice how this feels and just experience that fully and completely...

As you do this, turn around and face the you in the present and observe how that you over there looks like with the problem. Now offer some advice, love and reassurance to that you in the present. How many different ways can that problem begin to resolve itself now?

Walk back into the present you and receive the messages from the future self. And then imagine that future self dissolving and mixing into your heart. Think about future situations where you would have had the problem and imagine being in the situation now with the new insights and resources. Actually run through a few scenarios because this helps your mind 'program in' and generalise the change.

One final thought:

Pick a resourceful state you want to experience more often in your life. Now instead of picking a problem to work with, use the resourceful state to 'go back to the future', and allow your future self to answer the following kind of question:

"What do I need to do to be able to experience this more often in my life?"


Extracted from Colin G Smith, a licensed Master Practitioner of NLP and author of 'The Half Second Rule: Your Master Key to Safe, Rapid & Effective Change'.