Sunday, December 30, 2007

Happy New Year 2008

Wishing everyone HAPPY NEW YEAR...

I am down with flu and fever...and hybernating for speedy recovery... to catch-up and be ready to celebrate the NEW YEAR 2008

Sunday, December 23, 2007

Of lil man's Junior Championship and Candy

The pics tell stories how Candy, our newbaby, came into our family.

Candy after taking shower.

Wednesday, December 19, 2007

Headache & lovely Candy

Since yesterday, I had headache. Not sure what triggered it. I believed too long sitting (i.e. almost the whole day) listening to briefing on matters related to happening within organization. Interesting results of people survey. After being back to corporate world almost 10 months now, I felt really miss my precious and challenging moment being a student. The objective is so very clear and focus. But in corporate world things will sway here and there depending on the games being played. That is the reality. I try hard not to succumb myself into this uncertain future and how things move within organization. A lot to read between the lines and do own interpretation. In this situation I have to be clear about my personal objectives and what I want to do and how it align with company need. The worst case if we our self don’t know what we want.

I have been writing much about my work offlate. Less about the happening within my personal life. In reality much is going on but sometimes hard to write. Anyway, this space to offload. At this time of the day, 2 am, I could not sleep and I felt very exhausted. Maybe I am having fever inside. Feel very warm internally. Big man and I had a chat about the happenings and what bothering with corporate world. Somehow this still keep on lingering in my mind. I need a panadol to ease the headache. I think I might have a slight fever too!

Candy is so cute and adorable. I just enjoy calling her as she will respond with "meow meow" and slowly approaching me to get attention and stroking soosn as I step in the house. Lovely animal with personal attachment and love. Pictures for cat's lovers out there...

Saturday, December 15, 2007

My clicking fingers...

Now, my fingers feel like clicking again. Please bare with me as I just let my thought transfer to words. Sorry if I am jumping up and and there. I was just back from 3 days away at hotel last night. Again, not a holiday but a workshop…mainly works no shop… As usual I take advantage of the stay to catch-up with preparation for 2 presentations which I had to deliver for 2 different topics. The hardest one is the one that I left the subject matters for so many years. So, as expected, I had dig old reports and materials to recall the detail what was done. The presentation was no big deal…but preparing for expected questions is a big job. Since the detail might have erased from brain after so more years. I told myself, I could only manage to re-read the old reports for certain extend. If something that I don’t have time to review, I have to be humble to say that I could not recall if any questions rose. Yes, I did exactly that.

For another presentation at the symposium in nearby local uni, the time limit is too short…10 minutes. I had to condense my material and encourage the audience to read my paper or ask me questions…Meeting some professors and new lecturer at that uni as part of networking is very enjoyable to me. We could exchange our experience on our research area. While during workshop at Mariot Putrajaya, exchanging knowledge and expertise between our organization, Australian research organization, local uni expertise and local company expertise is also a good one. But at the end of the day, brain so drain out…so much new knowledge to be digested especially in the area of which not within my expertise. Nevertheless it is fun since everyone is learning from each other.

Within my area of expertise/experience on that particular subject matter, apparently I was the only one who still around in the company. Others who had been involved in this project up to the implementation stage are no more in the company. They had found their way out…majority to the land of desert…Arabian desert… the pert is so irresistible… Me? Still want to stick around… as long as I can still fit into the environment… and still be around the circle of family… being away to other land is not my preference right now… I been long enough for quite sometimes..

Now back to baby matters. I thought I had given up on that since my other half is not so into it even though the lil man is quite persistent in persuading his papa. It is all started with my lil man been on stage voluntarily for some Disney magic performance sometime ago. My cousins and their kids were there. I didn’t join them as the VIP tickets were limited. I let both lil man and big man to join the performance. And me…stay home doing my cores. The story I heard was that my lil man was really enjoyed being on stage to participate on the show. He was so very confident and full of enjoyment. One picture was captured to reflect the whole story…

A week after that event, my cousin called me to ask if lil man would want to be in another show…a different show. He agreed and we proceeded with that…but a load of story to describe the outcome of that junior showmanship competition. Not that we wish him to win, but the fact that he had the dilemma within him… The dilemma of not being up close and personal to this baby…. It is quite an emotional story if no one knows the real story behind it. Maybe I will blog about this later if I could describe it with words. Nevertheless the event comes out to be memorable one for lil man and for us all. After that event, this baby is just like his own sibling. Surprisingly, never did I have known, big man is also fond of this baby. Now, the 5 month old baby becomes part of our family. The moment of separation will be hard later on. We might end up continuously taking care of this baby, if both lil and big man find it hard to detach from this lil one. This is our new baby….

Her name is Candy, named by lil man, a combination of her parent’s name. Brown tabby white Persian (If I correctly described it). She is a new addition o our family. Candy help to balance tantrum that lil man have due to his high functioning asperger syndrome autistic character. That is the story of our new baby.

Will be back… Selamat hari raya aidil adha to everyone.

Anggerik M
December 15, 2007

Friday, December 07, 2007

Pictures tell stories but upload too slow

November has been the busiest month for me. I could only count with fingers how many days I stayed in the office and home. Nevertheless, I am contented with all activities which kept me occupied. Just that, by now I drain so much of energy for a continuos move around especially the part which I have to drive in a congested area of Kl.

Paste some pictures to capture what was going on in November 2007 may suffice to capture some memories...but upload is too only one picture here.

Continue with my blog writing... now already December. Time flies like a rocket. Many time I sat down and trying to write something in my blog...but my fingers just didn't move...that was what happen. Obviously, by the time I am home, all my energy drain out for the day. All I see is a sofa to land as soon as I came into the house..

The closer I am to the end of the year, my list of things to do at office is getting longer... Loads of adhoc things come along which disturb all the listed plan to do..sigh..Leave me with no time for myself...

Anyway, that is what it takes in this work place... nevertheless, I still keep myself laughing and giigling whenever needed to dissipate some heat release...

I mumble again..

Maybe if my finger could be back to click..will share story about our 4 month old new baby.

Monday, November 19, 2007


I was looking for a mood setting to prepare my pre-course homework for the next 2 days Manager's forum. The pre-course work require us to write about our leadership journey from pre-career up to career life. As get that mood and recall on my journey and how I handle my work in term of leadership, I need to get some inspiring note to read. I found this in my archive...I read and I ponder...then I get my mind in the right mood to write about that journey of life....

It is madness…
To hate all roses
Because you got scratched with one thorn
To give up on your dreams
Because one didn’t come true…
To lose faith in prayers
Because one was not answered…
To give up on your efforts
Because one of them failed…
To condemn all your friends
Because one betrayed you…
Not to believe in love
Because someone was unfaithful or didn’t love you back…
To throw away all your chances to be happy
Because you did not succeed on the first attempt

I hope that as you go on your way
You don’t give into madness
Remembering always…
Another chance may come up
Another friend
A new love
A renewed strength
Be persistent
Look for happiness in every day
The sure path to failure is to give up!
It is often through failure that future success come- KEEP TRYING!
God bless you.

Will see what new tips I could learn from Leadership in that forum. Will be away from offce and home again...It is funny that this month I spend 2/3 of my time in hotel rather than at office and home.

Need to pack my suit case...

Tuesday, November 13, 2007

masuk hotel keluar hotel

Hidup ku masuk hotel keluar hotel makan kat hotel...workshop sampai malam.... drive many miles everyday....balik rumah terbongkang kat sofa...

Maybe a good idea to just rent a room in the hotel rather than have a house... what a life..

Monday, October 29, 2007

Post raya ...

Untuk semua,

terima kasih diatas ucapan hari raya. Maafkan saya tak dapat reply satu-satu. Tak sempat nak berinternet kebelakangan ni.

Seminggu saya beraya dikampung. Kemeriahan and kesibukan kunjung mengunjung sehingga tidak berkesempatan untuk berinternet. Lagipun dirumah dikampung tak ada sambungan internet.

Setelah pulang ke KL, masuk ke pejabat...terus ke workshop sana sini. Sekarang ni dah keluar negara pulak. Tapi tak jauh. Hanya 2 jam penerbangan. Termiss lagi raya gathering bersama kawan-kawan di KL disebabkan kena travel masa hari minggu.

Semalam makan di restoran Sari Kuring bersama kawan serta sepupu. Terlupa nak ambil gambar makanan. Dah habis makan baru ingat. Ni kes lapar sangat. Yang tak tahan disini macetnya. Tapi nasib baik tak kena "macet total". Balik ke hotel, ada internet. Jadi sempat jugak tengok-tengok blog yang dah berabuk ni selepas masuk ke email pejabat. Akan berada sini hampir seminggu. Menghadiri conference juga berinteraksi. Semuga dapat mencari apa yang baru serta bertemu kawan-kawan baru didalam industry ini. Kalau berkesempatan nak jugak pergi spa pada malam hari bila tak ada apa nak buat dihotel. Dah lama tak ke spa.

Oh ya, semasa raya gathering office minggu lepas, ada jugak tolong buat persembahan sketsa SATU HARI DIHARI RAYA. Itupun sangatlah impromtu. Cuma ada setengah jam untuk fikir concept, pilih lagu, cari orang, praktis 2 kali. Terus buat persembahan. Semuanya express. Yang penting nya spirit.

Saya kembali bila berkesempatan.

October 29, 2007

p/s terlalu lembap untuk upload photo. Tunggu balik KL.

Sunday, October 07, 2007

Setulus ucapan

Untuk semua rakan-rakan bloggers,

Ramadhan hampir ke penghujungnya. Bulan yang mengajar kita erti kesabaran, keredhaan, ketabahan....

Izinkan saya menyusun sepuluh jari mengucapkan ampun dan maaf seandainya ada yang tersalah ucapan, terkasar bahasa...diharap jangan simpan didalam hati.

Selamat menyambut hari raya Aidil fitri.

Berhati-hati didalam perjalanan. Semuga selamat sampai ke kampung halaman. Yang diperantauan, semuga bergembira memeriahkan suasana Aidilfitri.

Salam aidilfitri dari,

Anggerik Merah, big man & lil man.
October 7, 2007

Wednesday, October 03, 2007


I had a good sleep in the 12 hours flight. I slept like a baby.

The first time to have iftar with a complete family after 4 years being away. Also having sahur in the morning. With my jetlag I stay up at night and sleep half day during day time.

I am longing for that peace of mind I had experienced last weekend during my stay back at nite in the office. Very calm mind. Tranquility….

Hectic & chaotic life disturb tranquility …


Saturday, September 29, 2007

The quest for beauty

It has been 2 weeks I was back to my old place. In a couple of days I will be back home again.

Capturing what had I accomplished:

1. Pre-tested the prototype before sending back to our office back home for evaluation. Approximately 2 days was spent on that.

2. Continued correcting my T. and discussed important point related to some data which I had some reservation about its validity and decided the best approach to tackle it.

3. Spent 1 week to attend course by my sup. Something that I wish I had the opportunity to attend earlier. Finally, I had chance to do that too.

4. Spring cleaned my stuff…papers, reports, references etc in the office

5. Was together with others in a big crowd to pay a last respect (2 minutes silence) to the demise of renowned Prof from our department. A very sad moment for everyone who knows him.

6. Met my second sup in front of demise Prof’s office while writing memory in the book. A shocked to also know that he had just had operation for prostate cancer. He helps me a lot in scrutinising my thesis layout and content some years ago from the perspective of very experience professor. And he is very fatherly too. I owe him much. 8 months ago, before leaving this place, the last word he said to me was “ May God help you”.

7. Attended a majlis berbuka puasa with Malaysian community here. Met many friends who know me and the new comer also.

8. Had iftar at my sup’s house to meet his lovely wife and cute 5 month old son.
Etc etc

My life is revolved within office area. The place I do my work, pray, sleep and eat. Make me realise the basic necessity in life!

I know that I will miss this memorable time of my life journey. Especially having some friends who I had a strong relationship and understand well the process that all of us going through. Share our happy and sad moments in life. I know that I will never do this again yet the experience had shape me to be what I am now.

The quest for beauty...which I captured at the Changi Airport on my transit to Cairo last 2 weeks...

Till then...goodbye for now!

Anggerik Merah

September 29, 2007

Thursday, September 27, 2007

Unlock Your Creative Inspiration

Article I received on how to snap out of 'stuck states' and unlock your creative inspiration!

Plus interesting pics I took at Changi Airport, Singapore during my transit to Cairo two weeks ago.
My escapism from energy drain out...

Enjoy it..

"Unlock Your Creative Inspiration" Copyright: Colin G Smith

You know the human mind, your mind, is truly awesome. Everything we see around us, incredible architecture, paintings, wondrous machines and the amazing musical master pieces of the ages all started in someone's imagination! We all possess this creative mechanism. Sometimes though we become, "stuck in a rut" or start to,"see blank", or we "hit a brick wall." These are common phrases used by people that are in 'stuck states.'

Their mind is unwilling to go else where. Just what is this state of mind and more interestingly how can we discover proven methods to ease out of it, swiftly and smoothly, into inspired and creative states of being?! If we were to look inside their mind we would likely discover that their 'stuckness' was in fact a bit like a video loop. It would be as if they were repeating a shortclip of a movie over and over: Hit a brick wall... back to the beginning and... repeat...

So how can you snap out of these loops?

Here's a lickety-split way:

Switch Representational System

It's easier than it sounds honest! Look at that person over there. She looks like she's in a bit of stymie. "Hey how'stricks? You look like you could do with some creative inspiration?! Ahhhh ok, Lisa, let's see what we can do then..."
First of all notice where and how you feel that stuck state. Where on/in your body is that feeling? I bet it's not in your little toe or is it?! Good.

Now switch representational system by giving that feeling a colour. 'As you notice that feeling what colour represents that best?' Just go with the first colour. And if you wish you could now give that feeling a sound. 'What sound represents this feeling?' Great, well done! You've done the main part.

What you have done is to access a different part of your mind by representing the feeling in a different sensory system (Visual/Auditory.) If you wanted, just for fun, you could even represent the feeling as a smell or taste! 'What does this feeling smell/taste like?'

With that you have instantly accessed multiple resources from different brain centres, allowing the creative process to emerge.

What you can do next is to explore the new representation in it's own sense system. So for example let's say the feeling you had, looked like black foggy cloud and sounded like a dull and distant tinny sounding radio.

The next step is to PLAY with these images and sounds. For example what happens if you 'paint' a silver lining around the black clouds? If you were to imagine bringing that radio closer how would the sound quality alter? Turn the dial?

I think you get the basic gist by now, so go ahead and give it a go and get wild and wacky because humour is always good for a laugh isn't it?!

So what happens now when you think about the 'stuck state'? Your feelings have changed! This process enables your mind to have more choice. Instead of getting stuck in a 'dead end' pathway, you have numerous ones to choose from. And more choice equals more flexibility, which equals more creativity.

Creativity is just a state of mind that can be triggered with specific mental strategies and can be enhanced by exploring other perspectives using a variety of tools. And the great thing is, the more you practice creative thinking, the more creative you become! Simply by learning to use our brains in more diverse ways we can discover the master keys to unlocking the power of our creative imagination!


Author Bio:Colin G Smith is a licensed Master Practitioner of Neuro-Linguistic Programming (NLP) and author of 'The NLPToolBox',

Wednesday, September 26, 2007

Drain out moment...

My energy drain out...

Feel like I want to sleep all the time. Blame it on the weather? But I told my brain not to think about weather. Even if it is forecasted to be 1 degree at nite, I feel fine as I am all the time in the building. Not been to outside much.

My officemate also complain the same. Maybe we had been too much exerted our energy last week. We slept in the office during weekend and keep doing the same thing. Our energy drain out and our productivity drop and we drag ourselves... What choice do we have?

Why must I loose this marathon?

Must find ways how to handle this enery drain out...

Focus...focus...focus... is what I need at this time.

Anggerik M,
September 26, 2007
4.25 am.

Tuesday, September 25, 2007

You will remain in our heart forever

I was talking to friends on Thursday that I must go and meet this Professor before leaving. He was the one who introduced me to my supervisor. I owe him much on this and I will always remember him.

In every opportunity I had chance to have discussion with him, I knew that he is a down to earth, honest and humble person. And a very knowledgeable and respectable in his area of expertise. He is no doubt, one of the well known contributor to the knowledge in our industry.

Sad news we received yesterday on his demise at the age of 59 years old. I only came to know that he suffered from brain tumor and had operation last 2 years. He passed away in his hometown in Iran on Friday, September 21, 2007.
Today, we pay a visit to his office to say goodbye and these are remain:

May his soul rest in peace and he will always remain in our heart forever.
Anggerik M
September 25, 2007
Generally from my observation, a good person don't leave too long in this world. He/she will be called back earlier in their life.

Sunday, September 23, 2007

Pakcik Mustaffa dalam kenangan

Hanya beberapa hari lagi akan cukup sebulan kami sekeluarga melawat Pakcik Mustaffa, ayah kepada sahabat karibku, semasa dia berada di Hospital Sultanah Aminah, Johor Baharu. Dia mengalami pendarahan daripada vein di jantung setelah terjatuh beberapa kali. Sebelah paru-parunya juga sudah rosak berkemungkinan besar keran dia “heavy smoker”. Mengikut kata doktor, walaupun dia nampak kuat tapi sebenarnya tak ada apa yang boleh dilakukan untuk menolongnya pada ketika itu. Hanya berharapkan kepada miracle supaya dia sembuh. Kekuatan semangat Pakcik untuk melawan penyakitnya sangat ketara. Semangatnya tidak pernah luntur. Dia seperti tidak dapat menerima kesakitan yang dialaminya. Ada jugak dia berkata yang mungkin sudah tiba masanya dia menumpukan sepenuh masanya kepada hal-hal keagamaan dan melupakan pekerjaannya.

Pakcik Mustaffa sangat baik orangnya. Penuh ketegasan, sangat kuat semangat and sangat berdisiplin. Dia seorang yang tidak boleh duduk diam. Walaupun sudah bersara tapi dia masih meneruskan pekerjaannya dengan pengalamannya sebagai seorang guru dan jugak Nazir sekolah. Kami mula mengenali Pakcik Mustaffa semasa dia dan Makcik melawat anaknya di bumi ini. Lil man selalu jugak ditinggalkan bersama cucu Pakcik Mustaffa dan Makcik semasa pembantu saya pulang ke Malaysia. Oleh itu lil man menganggap Pakcik Mustaffa seperti Tok Ayah nya jugak.

Masih ingat lagi semasa Pakcik disini, setiap pagi dia akan ke kedai berhampiran rumah anaknya untuk membeli suratkhabar. Dia ada memberitahu saya yang dia agak gusar disini sebab tak ada kedai kopi seperti di Malaysia untuk melapak-lepak. Walaubagaimanpun dia cuba mencari aktiviti untuk dilakukan seperti berjalan kaki dan juga bermain dengan cucunya.

Semasa kami sekeluarga di Hospital Sultan Aminah, sempat kami melawatnya sebanyak dua kali pada hari Sabtu dan Ahad sebelum kami bertolak balik ke Kuala Lumpur. Sedih jugak nak tinggalkan dia. Sebelum berangkat balik saya sempat menasihatkan Pakcik supaya banyak berehat semuga cepat sembuh. Insyaallah panjang umur kami datang lagi melawat Pakcik. Bergenang airmata dikelopak matanya dan saya cuba menyembunyikan kesedihan saya supaya emosinya tidak terganggu. Didalam hati saya terfikir yang kita tidak tahu siapa yang Allah akan panggil dulu. Walaupun saya lebih sihat darinya, kalau sudah sampai masanya walaupun sesaat tidak akan ditangguhkan.

Saya ada memberitahu kepada Pakcik yang saya akan kembali ke sini untuk seketika. Dia menyahut sambil tersenyum lebar dan berkata “seronoknya” dan menyuruh saya membawa lil man bersama. Saya jelaskan padanya yang saya pergi dengan urusan kerja dan akan singgah dinegara lain. Sukar bagi saya untuk membawa lil man bersama. Saya juga memberitahu dia yang saya akan pergi tengok kedai yang dia sering beli suratkhabar setiap hari untuk mengingatkan memori nya semasa bercuti disini hampir 3 tahun yang lalu.

Sebelum saya berangkat kesini, sahabat saya memberitahu yang Pakcik dalam persediaan menjalani operasi di HKL. Teringin saya nak melawatnya sekali lagi sebelum berangkat. Tetapi saya diberitahu yang hanya keluarga terdekat dibenarkan melawatnya. Sesekali saya masih berhubung dengan sahabat saya mengenai perkembangan Pakcik.

Pagi ini saya melalui jalan berhadapan kedai dimana Pakcik berkunjung setiap hari…selepas saya menerima SMS dari sahabat saya memberitahu berita kematian ayahanda kesayangannya semasa kami bersedia untuk bersahur di bumi ini. Pak cik kembali kerahmatullah pada 8:20 pagi waktu Malaysia, 23 September 2007. Alfatihah untuk PakCik Mustaffa. Semuga rohnya ditempatkan bersama-sama orang yang beriman.

Setelah menerima berita itu saya terus menalipon big man memberitahu padanya. Saya tidak berharap big man boleh memandu ke Johor kerana dia baru saya keluar dari hospital kelmarin. Dia masih lemah. Sebenarnya big man mengidap Rheumatoid arthritis mengikut diagnosis terakhir doktor kelmarin. Semasa perbualan talipon saya mendengar lil man pastering big man untuk pergi menziarah Pakcik Mustaffa. Katanya “their family are just like our own family”. Begitu rapatnya persahabatan lil man dengan cucu-cucu Pakcik Mustaffa. Seperti isi dengan kuku.

Saya kuatkan semangat menalipon sahabat saya untuk memberikan nya moral support. Ternyata saya pun tidak dapat menahan sebak. Sahabat saya masih teresak-esak dan berkata “ I tried to do the best for him”. Saya cuma mampu berkata padanya “Yes, I know that, but you must let him go…dan banyak bersabar”. I know it is easy said than done. My heart is with her and her family. Saya tahu yang sahabat saya sangat terasa kehilangan ayahnya. How I wish I was there to be by her side.

Pakcik Mustaffa dalam kenangan…

Semuga Allah menempatkan Pakcik bersama-sama orang yang beriman. AMIN.


Sejak kebelakangan ini saya dapat rasakan yang diri saya sudah dibentuk menjadi lebih cekal untuk menghadapi sebarang dugaan yang mendatang. Mungkin Allah telah mengkabulkan permintaan saya supaya saya jadi begitu. Lebih redha diatas dugaan dan cabaran dan jangan mudah putus asa. Juga lebih banyak fikirkan hikmah disebalik dugaan yang mendatang. Semuga Allah terus memberikan saya kekuatan untuk melalui perjalanan hidup ini. Dan semuga saya juga tidak lupa mendoakan yang sama untuk keluarga serta sahabat-sahabat saya.

Nukilan rasa

Anggerik Merah
Sept 23, 2007

Friday, September 21, 2007

Kehidupan buat ketika ini...

Hati rasa sangat gelisah dan sedih bila mendengar berita tentang adik Nurin apabila membaca berita on-line. Alfatihah untuk aruah adik Nurin. Sayu rasanya hati…

Saya pun terus menalipon lil man untuk mengingatkan dia jangan sesekali keluar rumah sorang-sorang. Lil man hanya tinggal bersama pembantu buat ketika ini kerana big man sekarang ditahan di hospital hingga hari Sabtu. Keadaan kesihatan big man tak berapa baik semenjak kebelakangan ni. Sekali lagi..semenjak saya kena keluar negara kerana urusan kerja dan juga menghabiskan sisa-sisa belajar yang belum sempat dihabiskan dulu. Saya akan cuba setakat yang saya mampu menghabiskan sisa-sisa pembelajaran saya sebelum pulang.

Sebenarnya saya terpaksa memaksa diri. Walaupun saya sedih juga sebab tak dapat bersama-sama keluarga menyambut puasa, tapi saya cekal kan hati untuk cuba merasakan keindahan bulan yang mulia ini masih ditempat lama dulu. Saya benar-benar memaksa diri tapi kekuatan saya tidak seperti dulu lagi. Saya cepat letih dan tak bermaya. Cuba cuba bermain dengan fikiran supaya melupakan kepenatan dan mungkin kemalasan jugak.

Saya cuba terus berfikiran positif walaupun terpaksa mengenangkan anak dirumah dengan pembantu dan suami terlantar di rumah sakit. Dan saya masih disini. Saya memohon dariNya supaya berikan saya kekuatan mental dan fizikal setakat yang saya mampu untuk meneruskan perjalanan ini walaupun berbagai halangan. Memang sedih dihati bila melihat gambar kawan-kawan seperjuangan saya yang telah pun meraikan kejayaan mereka dan saya tidak dapat bersama-sama mereka diketika itu. Namun saya bangga dengan kejayaan kawan-kawan saya yang sama-sama berjuang. Seperti yang saya doakan setiap hari selepas sembahyang supaya Allah mempermudahkan urusan saya dan kawan-kawan saya semua. Allah makbulkan walaupun saya masih terus berjuang.

Dalam masa yang singkat ini, saya meneruskan perjalanan ini dan berharap ianya akan sampai ke penghujungnya secepat yang mungkin. Apapun, saya cuba mengingatkan diri saya yang saya tidak boleh melebihi limit saya. Nasihat dari Sir Count Byron kepada saya supaya jaga kesihatan bermain dikepala saya ketika otak saya dah tak produktif. Sekiranya saya penat, saya berehat seketika. Setiap kali saya rasa kepenatan, saya akan tinggal kan pejabat ini dan berjalan di luar untuk menghirup angin segar. Sambil tu saya memerhatikan pokok-pokok yang masih hijau yang belum bertukar warna, jugak itik-itik yang saya selalu beri makan di tasik dulu. Tapi saya lihat dah tak banyak itik-itik di tasik itu. Mungkin dah berpindah ke tempat lain. Air tasik pun ada sedikit kotor dari dulu. Macam tak terpelihara.

Saya amat terhutang budi pada pasangan suami isteri yang sama-sama belajar disini mengajak saya tinggal bersama keluarga mereka dirumah saya dulu. Tak lah saya kesunyian dan keseorangan. Tambahan pulak mereka ada seorang anak yang comel dan petah berkata-kata dengan bahasanya. Terhibur hati rasanya. Semuga Allah membalas jasa baik mereka berdua. Ramai jugak kawan-kawan lain mengajak saya tinggal bersama mereka. Tapi saya rasa selesa tinggal dirumah yang saya pernah menyewa dulu.

Saya jugak terhibur dengan rakan-rakan di pejabat ini yang sama- sama berjuang. Berbagai cerita yang berlaku sejak saya tinggalkan tempat ini beberapa bulan yang lalu. Walauapapun, saya ada tujuan. Jadi saya cuba tumpukan kepada urusan saya disini. Beg tidur serta dua bantal saya masih ada di pejabat ini. Masih berguna untuk saya pada hari-hari yang saya duduk dipejabat ini sepanjang malam. Bila saya dah penat boleh lah saya berbaring dilantai.

Begitulah kehidupan saya buat ketika ini…

September 21, 2007
Room C1-6

Wednesday, September 19, 2007

A glance of Egypt - Part 2

Another collections of pics.

I let the pictures tell thousand stories as I will not have any moment now to write about it now...
Crossing over River Nile, Cairo
Somewhere near Pyramid area
Part of Alexandria township
On the way back from Alex to Cairo
Nite life in Cairo
On the way to Alex
Another butcher

In front of Sheraton Montazah, Alex overseing Mediterranean Sea

by yours truly,

Anggerik Merah

Sept 19, 2007

A glance of Egypt - part 1

A glance of Egypt....

With a short and hectic travel in Egypt...I am sharing some of the pics which mostly taken during on-land travelling (approx. 4 hours) from Cairo to Alexandria.

Reaching to pyramid on the way back from Alex to Cairo

A view from a small town as we passing to the fabrication yard in Alexandria

Intersting pics of the two woman kill their time

View from my hotel bedroom at Sheraton Montazah Alexandria overseeing Mediterranean Sea

Tamar tree with a background of radiant coloured office building within the vicinity of visited plant

Road entrance to Sheraton Montazah hotel in Alexandria

Tuk tuk in Alexandria

Toll both to Alexandria

Peagent house along the way to Alex

A butcher store in a small town of Alex

A pyramid hunter
by your truly,
Anggerik Merah
Sept 19, 2007

Saturday, September 15, 2007

In the land intense/intermittent sunshine

From the land of intense travel for work took me to Cairo and Alexandria for several days. Travelling on the land of Egypt was the most interesting experience. The beauty of River Nile, pyramids and Mediterranean Sea. The caotic traffic was almost unimaginable which I can't compare it with KL traffic and driving style. I would easily get heart attack if I need to drive on my own...hehehe. And the nite life in some places was really really happenings. I am amazed! Will share more story and pics later, Insyaallah when time permit.

Travelling from Cairo thru Frankfurt to my next destination on Spet 11 is a date to remember. Nevertheless, I have no worry.

Now, I am in the land with intermittent sunshine (for the last 2 days), or sometimes could be almost like 4 seasons in a day (as said by one of the locals this morning), and today with no sunshine. I almost forgot how to adjust my body to this kind of weather despite of used to be here for many years. Nevertheless, I must get myself adjusted soon enough with the weather and manage the jet lag well...

My work place is still intack but very dusty. Friends are happy to see me back. But I miss my loves one back home. Whenever I woke up in the early morning, I wish I was embraced by my love one. Will be here for sometimes to settle my unfinish business and also work responsibility.

I just recalled that Sept 13 is my 2nd blogging anniversary. I started blogging on this land and on this date I was here too. What a coincident! It has been 2 interesting and memorable years in blogging world. I would not want to remember at the time when I started blogging and how much that I shared the happenings with me and around me. All I know I learn many things about life and people through blogging. And I met many lovely friends out there...

The more I think about blogging, it is to me is my written diary most of it to capture my thought and experiences especially when there is no single soul could be next to me to hear...

Ramadhan Mubarak to everyone!

Anggerik M
Sept 15, 2007; 6:36 pm


My officemate forwarded this, I like it and i paste it here to ponder..

Four Words that Make Life Worthwhile by Jim Rohn

Over the years as I've sought out ideas, principles and strategies to life's challenges, I've come across four simple words that can make living worthwhile.

First, life is worthwhile if you LEARN. What you don't know WILL hurt you. You have to have learning to exist, let alone succeed. Life is worthwhile if you learn from your own experiences - negative or positive. We learn to do it right by first sometimes doing it wrong. We call that a positive negative. We also learn from other people's experiences, both positive and negative. I've always said that it is too bad failures don't give seminars. Obviously, we don't want to pay them so they aren't usually touring around giving seminars. But that information would be very valuable – we would learn how someone who had it all then messed it up. Learning from other people's experiences and mistakes is valuable information because we can learn what not to do without the pain of having tried and failed ourselves.

We learn by what we see so pay attention. We learn by what we hear so be a good listener. Now I do suggest that you should be a selective listener, don't just let anybody dump into your mental factory. We learn from what we read so learn from every source; learn from lectures; learn from songs; learn from sermons; learn from conversations with people who care. Always keep learning.

Second, life is worthwhile if you TRY. You can't just learn; now you have to try something to see if you can do it. Try to make a difference, try to make some progress, try to learn a new skill, try to learn a new sport. It doesn't mean you can do everything, but there are a lot of things you can do, if you just try. Try your best. Give it every effort. Why not go all out?

Third, life is worthwhile if you STAY. You have to stay from spring until harvest. If you have signed up for the day or for the game or for the project - see it through. Sometimes calamity comes and then it is worth wrapping it up. And that's the end, but just don't end in the middle. Maybe on the next project you pass, but on this one, if you signed up, see it through.

And lastly, life is worthwhile if you CARE. If you care at all you will get some results, if you care enough you can get incredible results. Care enough to make a difference. Care enough to turn somebody around. Care enough to start a new enterprise. Care enough to change it all. Care enough to be the highest producer. Care enough to set some records. Care enough to win.

Four powerful little words: learn, try, stay and care.

What difference can you make in your life today by putting these words to work?

Wednesday, August 29, 2007

Will be back

I will be moving here and there for sometimes. On a travel mode.

I wish to share my story during my hometown visit recently but somehow my excitement of writing the story temporarily lost in the air. Too much on the plate that I need to take care..nevertheless I practice relaxing by meeting people ...hence my talking and listening skill are being utilised extensively rather than writing in the blog.

Will be back to update the happenings. In case I am gone too long ...selamat menyambut Ramadhan to everyone out there. Semuga ianya membawa berkat.

And Selamat Menyambut MERDEKA in two days time.

Anggerik Merah
August 29, 2007

Tuesday, August 14, 2007

Mind talk

I was exhausted today. Mentally and physically exhausted. Maybe I am too engrossed with justifying my technical assessment. Trying to recall most of work which I had left 4 years ago is a pain. Most of it residing in the reports which was dispersed everywhere. It took me sometimes to track the copy of report.

Sitting down and recalling the details are really hard. But I do as much as I could. My mind is contemplating on how best I could project myself to justify something which I almost erase from my mind. My energy really drains out. I could not say that I had forgotten most of it. What I need right now is to create back that mental picture so that I could explain the subject matter well enough.

I am very fortunate to have some colleagues who are willing to spend time with me to refresh my old knowledge. May God bless them with more knowledge. There are also colleagues who just wish that I will never get through it. Such attitude is very destructive to the organization. I would never want to associate with that kind of people. And I pray to God not to let me be one of them. And I will not let them kill my motivation and drive. If I deserve it, it is mine.

I will be hiatus for a while…

Sunday, August 12, 2007

Beauty is in the eyes of beholder

So being said. It is true..and I must agree.

This is my beautiful 3 year old niece (Marissa). We celebrated b’day together last month. Picture taken during our b’day.

This is her 4 month old little brother (Alif Haikal) and his first food.

Last weekend, my sister called me. She shivered in the phone while talking to me. I was worried thinking that something happen to anyone of her children. The news is about her shocking state of mind. Not expecting that she is pregnant again after having a 4 month old. She told me that she is not ready. I tried to calm her down and convinced her that it is bless indeed. One of her worries is about a struggle to feed the children because they don’t have a permanent job.
I convinced her that she must believe every child arrive in this world will have his/her portion as I don’t want her to have a thot of aborting the pregnancy. And…I know that she finally decided to let it be. She is indeed bless with beautiful children…and me being their untie will shower them with my love and all that I have as if they are my own. It is amazing to learn the behaviour of these young one. Their presence and their beauty makes our life so meaningful…

Beauty is in the eyes of beholder indeed…

Thot came to my mind in this early morning of the day…

Life had been beautiful for me…Once I said to myself I could not afford to be sick, sad, emotional and inviting any negative energy to conquer me….I manage to take things coming to me in a more positive way with reflection…I move on in life.

Make everyday possibly the best…create more success (even if it is little one), filled with joy in my heart and soul…bless with the loves one around me (my two man, family and friends)…..and most of all, I thank Him for the opportunity to be alive and kicking again. Accepting and move on is the key to everything…

To my blogger friends out there...those I met in person and those I never met...I must say that you make a difference in my life. The same to a very few friends who read my blog.