Friday, November 17, 2006

A lesson in life

Everything happens for a reason. Nothing happens by chance or by means of good or bad luck. Illness, injury, love, lost moments of true greatness and sheer stupidity all occur to test the limits of your soul. Without these small tests, if they be events, illnesses or relationships, life would be like a smoothly paved, straight, flat road to nowhere.

If someone hurts you, betrays you , or breaks you heart, forgive them. For they have helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious to who you open your heart to.

If someone loves you, love them back unconditionally, not only because they love you, but because they are teaching you to love and opening your heart and eyes to things you would have never seen or felt without them.

Make every day count. Appreciate every moment and take from it everything that you possibly can, for you may never be able to experience it again.

Talk to people you have never talked to before, and actually listen. Hold your head up because you have every right to. Tell yourself you are a great individual and believe in yourself, for if you don't believe in yourself, no one else will believe in you either.

You can make of your life anything you wish.
Create your own life and then go out and live it.



Soon my internet service at my flat will be disconnected. I will not be able to have any entry or blogging for a while.

Thank you for your wishes, support and prayer. Only Allah will be able to pay you back.

Will meet again. Insyaallah.

Good bye for now.

Keep smiling, laughing and loving..:-)

Anggerik Merah
Nov 19, 2006
5:15 pm

Thursday, November 16, 2006

This I promise you

My love, here I stand before you
I am yours now
From this moment on
Take my hand
Only you can stop me shaking
We'll share forever
This I promise you

And when I look in your eyes
All of my life feels before me
And I'm not running anymore
Cause I already know I'm home
With every beat of my heart
I give you my love completely
My darling, this I promise you

My love, I can feel your heartbeat
As we dance now
Closer than before
Don't let go
Don't let go
Cause I can almost cry now
This is forever
I make this vow to you

And when I look in your eyes
All of my life feels before me
And I'm not running anymore
Cause I already know I'm home
With every beat of my heart
I give you my love completely
My darling, this I promise you
My darling, this I promise you
This I promise you, oh I promise you, promise you
This I promise you

Tuesday, November 14, 2006

Life on the train

To all my beloved blogger frens who left comment in previous entry...thanks so much from the bottom of my heart. I have no clue how to reply. Please forgive me and love ya all....

Those who came without a trace...also my sincere appreciation.

I decided to republish earlier entry (Dec 5, 2005) since I found it theraupetic for me at this point of time.

Enjoy it.

My beloved friend sent this to me this morning. My special thanks to the original author (whoever he or she was..).

I dedicated this to all passengers at sentraalstation (especially to Kak Teh, the station master) and all those in the blogging world..with love from Anggerik Merah…

A while back, I read a very interesting book that compared life to a train ride or a series of train rides.

Life is like a train ride, it read
We get on
We ride
We get off

We get back on and ride some more
There are accidents and there are delays
At certain stops there are surprises
Some of these will translate into great moments of joy
Some will result in profound sorrow

When we are born and we first board the train
We met people whom we think will be with us for the entire journey
Those people are our parents!

Sadly, this is far from the truth
Our parents are with us for as long as we absolutely need them
They too have journeys they must complete
We live on with the memories of their love, affection, friendship, guidance and their ever presence

These are others who board the train and who eventually become very important to us, in turn
These people are our brothers, sisters, friends and acquaintance, whom we will learn to love and cherish

Some people consider their journey like a jaunty tour
They will just go merrily along

Others will encounter many upsets, tears, losses on their journey
Others still, will linger on the offer a helping hand to anyone in need

Some people on the train will leave an everlasting impression when they get off
Some will get on and get off the train so quickly, they will scarcely leave a sign that they ever travelled along with you or even crossed your path

We will sometimes be upset that some passengers whom we love, will choose to sit in another compartment and leave us to travel on our own
Then again, there’s nothing that says we can’t seek them out anyway

Nevertheless, once sought out and found, we may not even be able to sit next to them because that seat will already be taken

That’s okay…everyone’s journey will be filled with hope, dreams, challenges, setbacks and goodbyes
We must strive to make the best of it….no matter what

We must constantly strive to understand our travel companions and look for the best in everyone
Remember that at any moment during our journey, any one of our travel companions can have a weak moment and be in need of our help

We too may vacillate or hesitate, even trip…hopefully we can count on someone being there to be supportive and understanding….

The bigger mystery of our journey is that we don’t know when our last stop will come
Neither do we know when our travel companions will make their last stop
Not even those sitting in the seat next to us

Personally, I know I’ll be sad to make my final stop…I’m sure of it!
My separation from all those friends and acquaintances I made during the train ride will be painful
Leaving all those I’m close to will be a sad thing.

But then again, I’m certain that one day I’ll get to the main station only to meet up with everyone else.
They’ll all be carrying their baggage…most of which they didn’t have when they first got on this train

I’ll be glad to see them again
I’ll also be glad to have contributed to their baggage…and to have enriched their lines, just as much as they will have contributed to my baggage and enriched my life

We’re all on this train ride together.
Above all, we should all try to strive to make the ride as pleasant and memorable as we can, right up until we each make the final stop and leave the train for the last time.

All aboard! Safe journey!!


Tuesday, November 07, 2006

Little girl

I could not find appropriate i call it LITTLE GIRL

& my break from posting entry last for one week.

Last Sunday I was with my ex-boss (and I still call him “Boss” until now) whom was a backbone of my career development within the company. I reported to him the first day I joined the company and had been his subordinate for nearly 10 years. Being a person he is, he was not only ex-boss to many of us but he remains as a friend and family friend even after his retirement from the company. Now, he pursued his career as an academician after retirement.

Even with his new post as academician he is still a person who never fails to support development and career opportunity for his subordinate or whoever needs advice from him. I am sure many bosses similar to him out there. It is just a matter of how fortunate we are to have opportunity to work with such person who could see our potential and natural talent to groom us appropriately to reach to maximum potential.

Sometimes, we have to mould our self to a company requirement as changes are expected with time. Some people decided to leave the company and do something which close to their heart. Some would take challenge of new opportunity and roles within the company. I am the one who take challenge on new opportunity within the company and I would consider myself loyal to the company I work with.

Coming back to my ex-boss, he used to call me “little girl” when I was his subordinate…hehehe…But beyond that I am matured enough through years to be called “little woman”.. So we could talk and make jokes openly without me blushing. It is enough to create smile and laugh…

The last time we met was 2 years ago when he came here with his wife and stayed a month with my family. We had great time and we really enjoyed their accompany. His wife cooked for lunch and dinner while my niece who was staying with me had opportunity to learn mouth watering cooking form her. I didn’t have opportunity because at that time as I was submerged myself most of the time in the lab. I only came back home to eat already prepared food and sleep when needed.

A kind of fatherly hug I received from him on Sunday..really bring a warm feeling of someone who cares and look after me. For the last two nights several of us had dinner gathering with him, my other high level ex-boss and another Doc (three of them travel together). They were here for business trip and also meeting students from their university. Loads of encouragement, advice and wisdom words from them to reflect our purpose, responsibilities, sacrifices and hopes being here.

To me and others too, it really injects loads of energy to strive and accomplish our mission here despite of many challenges. Loads I came to know about new development within the company and opportunity where I can have a choice to fit into the organisation when I am back. I told them I am really looking forward to be back and I feel that I need to get away from this environment. It is a mix of positive and negative vibes from what I had said to them. Well, I speak my mind out..whatever I think.

Just a couple hours ago, another pat in the back I received from my ex-boss before he left. Also a good-bye and loads of encouragement from the other two gentlemen. I almost broke my tears but I hide with a smile when they said to me.."we will doa a lot for you, you also must doa a lot". I left with saying “thank you”. They asked me when I am planning to be back…and I told them again today as I mentioned to them last two days. I had a small laugh when they said "do come back to join us"…I said “Insyaallah”.

I guess I am really need to boost up my energy and to be stimulated. In some instant I feel as if I am still a little girl… am I?

Nov 7, 2006 13:39