Not surviving the storm but dance in the rain...

Exactly a month ago (June 30, 2008: 11:oo pm), I was packing my things for a business trip to Japan. I took my mobile from my office handbag and noticed one missed call from old friends sent in at 10:20 om. The message read

"Assalamualaikum...to let you know that Dr. M passed away a couple hours ago after sudden collapsed at KLCC..."

My heart beating fast the moment I read that message. Tried to reach my friend to know detail, but not successful... I told big man about the news as big man also knew Dr. M well. Immdeiately big man warned me. "Dr. M was a very hardworking person. He will continue his work at home once the children goes to sleep. See what happen to him. Just in split second he was gone."

I could not say anything more as I was shocked. Just 2 weeks before this incident, I had some false alarm which scared me. After lunch with friends in office cafeteria, my friends and I walked back to office. As we entered the office door, suddently I had this surge of fast heart-beat. I almost felt as if I would faint. But queitly I control myself and kept silence. I would not want to tell my two other friends who were walking with me at that time. I rushed to my chair and tried to calm down. Then I went to my other lady friend to let her know how I felt at that time and asked her to look after me in case I fainted. It was very scary to have that sudden change in heart beat. And I could not figure out the reason. Following that blood test was done on me, good to know that generally I am health with the some slight increase in cholesterol level. But doctor said that is not something to worry...

With the sudden death of Dr. M, it is a wake up call for all of the at the office... to keep a healthy life style... but most of the time work stress is unavoidable. We must knowhow to manage it well. The sudden demise of Dr M is a big lost. He is a very nice person...friendly and we can always count on him to sort out some difficult problem... But when our time is up... not a single minute will be delayed.

Another interesting story....one day my big man told me that he was in conversation with someone at the wet market. The person asked him why seldom seing me...Big man told him that my wife always travel for business. Then that person ask big man why don't he marry another one. Big man told him that if he really wanted to marry another one, he would have done it when we both separated for almost 4 years when I was in UK.... So I gave my big man a big smile ..

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A very touching story indeed...I received this forwarded email...Something to ponder...

How to Dance in the Rain

It was a busy morning, about 8:30, when an elderly gentleman in his 80's arrived to have stitches removed from his thumb. He said he was in a hurry as he had an appointment at 9:00 am. I took his vital signs and had him take a seat, knowing it would be over an hour before someone would to able to see him. I saw him looking at his watch and decided, since I was not busy with another patient, I would evaluate his wound.

On exam, it was well healed, so I talked to one of the doctors, got the needed supplies to remove his sutures and redress his wound. While taking care of his wound, I asked him if he had another doctor'sappointment this morning, as he was in such a hurry. The gentleman told me no, that he needed to go to the nursing home to eat breakfast with his wife. I inquired as to her health. He told me that she had been there for a while and that she was a victim of Alzheimer's Disease.

As we talked, I asked if she would be upset if he was a bit late. He replied that she no longer knew who he was, that she had not recognized him in five years now.

I was surprised, and asked him, 'And you still go every morning, even though she doesn't know who you are?' He smiled as he patted my hand and said, 'She doesn't know me, but I still know who she is.'

I had to hold back tears as he left, I had goose bumps on my arm, and thought.

'That is the kind of love I want in my life.' True love is neither physical, nor romantic.

True love is an acceptance of all that is, has been, will be, and will not be.

With all the jokes and fun that are in e-mails, sometimes there is one that comes along that has an important message. This one I thought I could share with you.

The happiest people don't necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the best of everything they have.

I hope you share this with someone you care about. I just did.

'Life isn't about how to survive the storm, but how to dance in the rain.'

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Anggerik Merah
11:32 pm
July 30, 2008

Another year has passed...

Anggerik at level 5 lobby of Hilton Schipol Airport, Amsterdam

Muhammad Adib Zikri, my lil sister's fourth son..now 3.5months. We called him "MAT SENGEH" as he is all the time smile...
Marissa Atifah, 4 year old, share the same date of birth with me. She is my lil sister's second child, i.e Adib's big sister
A white chocholate Mecadamia b'day cake from Lil man and big man. Lil man chose the cake and big man pay for it...Thanks to both beloved man in my life.

Yes, today 23 July 2008, another year pf my life has passed. I am blessed with what Allah has installed for me in this life.

Despite of my not in the pink of health, I am thankful to Allah for many things.


Happy birthday to Marissa Atifah & Mak long Anggerik Merah.

Anggerik Merah
July 23, 2008
11:16 pm

What money can buy...

I was at one of the talk organised within company on matters related to EQ...

Something interesting to ponder as my take away from that session

MONEY CAN BUY HOUSE BUT NOT HOME

MONEY CAN BUY BED BUT NOT SLEEP

MONEY CAN BUY CLOCK BUT NOT TIME

MONEY CAN BUY BOOK BUT NOT KNOWLEDGE

MONEY CAN BUY FOOD BUT NOT APPETITE

MONEY CAN BUY STATUS BUT NOT RESPECT

MONEY CAN BUY BLOOD BUT NOT LIFE

MONEY CAN BUY MEDICINE BUT NOT HEALTH

MONEY CAN BUY SEX BUT NOT LOVE

Sustainable happiness and sense of personal balance are derived from internal (intangible) qualities rather than external (tangible) assets.
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I am knocked down by viral fever for the last 3 days. I am attached to my bed most of the time. All joins are acking.

AM

July 20, 2008

10:30 pm

Overdue

Opppp....my entry is already overdue by 2 weeks. Back from Chiba and a short 3 hours wondering around AKASUKA was so fast leaving my memory. Too much going on everyday and I don't even have time to transfer some pictures taken.

After came back...presentation to VP, presentation to community of practice, write report on trip, and many many more.....more to come...never ending. Just take it one at a time...that is my philosophy. If I need to hide away...I will do.

Just like today.. with office attire I work at home to prepare for another talk on Thursday. Strategise what to say in my brain...things that I had not done for for sometimes. Need some recall and reading on the subject matter. But I must admit, I like it...the etchnical presentation I mean... better than presentation to Management which always ask about value creation...and value creation all the time. I am bored with the same questions...People under Technology and Research Management needs those thing from us...poor fellow researchers and I must admit a low paid brain too...

BTW, I will be travelling again mid of next month. This time very far. I better enjoy it....work hard/smart and enjoy/play hard too..

AM

July 15
9 pm