Go away anxiety

Sometimes anxiety sets in for various reasons. The pressure of getting things done by oneself , for instant, internal pressure and the pressure from other external factors.

Regardless of what cause the anxiety, the most important thing is how to properly manage it. Not allowing it to over rule ones life.

Go away anxiety...

Anggerik M

10:28 pm

20/12/2010

After a long silence

I have not been writing in this space for almost 6 months. Much thots came to my mind off late and I am saying to myself, it is time to continue writing here again. Perhaps this would capture a deeper thots transferring from space of mind to this space as mean to deposit.

It have been a rather up and down rides in life. But Alhamdullilah, Allah had provided me with all the strength to continue life in various perspective. Waking up at this hour after a rather earlier sleep to compensate with tired body, had put me back on to write on this space. Honestly I had not been writing much offlate. A good and not so good side of it.

The treasure of the moment really have loads of impact on my life. I had let go of the bitter past and adored the sweet memories. That is one accomplishment indeed. However, some thought lingering in my mind about the future and its plan... I have those plans and looking at future not to far down the road as I believe we can only plan for future and we have no clue how it will turn out. Allah would have a better plan for us beyond our knowing. I must confess, at time I was obsessed with the future retirement plan. And I realise there is some part of life that I need to go through first and get it done with. I had not been able to efficiently sort it out within my priority of life as yet. It fall within top priority but it never get to the highest attention in the list. Mind programming is what I needed and a guidance from HIM is what I am needed.

This space will need to be fill-up again. I do not mind what crazy, stressful thot it might deposit. I would rather let it deposits.

I realise offlate, I started to loose a bit of memory. Mine is not as sharp as before...

I wish to live this life with full guidance from HIM and may HE make it easy for me to go through it.

After a long silence...

Anggerik Merah 2010

2:47 am

20/12/2010

July 2010

It has been a month of turning into another year in life...

Anggerik2005

July 31 2010

Live day by day

I had not written as frequent as i wish to. This can be an entry for May 2010. I am still clueless what to write...

Pen down

Anggerik
May 16, 2010 4:30 pm

Clueless thot

I am a bit clueless with what to do things... i.e. with my lil man. I called my old nanny who took care of lil man from small till 5 years old. Thinking that she would be able to come here for a while to help us with lil man. The moment I asked her about how she is doing...I don't have a gut to ask her to be here. I don't think she would do that since she is buzy taking care of her grand children.

I am clueless again. Wouldn't know what and how to move ahead.

For now, yes I remain clueless. I am hurt and sad too... but I never want to let it ruin my life either. So I have to stay calm and compose.

Clueless thot.

Anggerik merah
April 6, 2010
9:45 pm

Recent get away

My recent get away for work...

Grand Winston Hotel in Risjkwick (sp?), Holand...See thru toilet

Near Westfield Mall in London

Al Aziz restaurant near Westfield mall, London

Jom Makan Restaurant, London

Belly dancing in Al Aziz Restaurant...came us a surprise to me and my fren

Stuck in the hotel room doing this for the weekend.. a new experience

Lobster at the restaurant (forgot the name) in London

In front of Hilton Kesington, London

In front of Hilton Kesington, London

Anggerik merah

March 21, 2010

11:30 pm

Good bye kak Ruby

Being away in a faraway land for almost a week, I came back to get a news that she has gone to meet the creator.

During my early days as a blogger, I always ensure that I remain as anon. And she was the first blogger I met in person in December 2006 at the time when I was extremely fragile and falling apart. Meeting her at The Chinois in KLCC was really a memorable one. To me, she is just like a sister I am searching for as a role model in life. She is so vibrant, lovely, full of energy and life... Our get together for a couple of hours was really a memory i never forget. Before saying goodbye to each other, I can see from her eyes that there was something she wanted to tell me..but it never came out from her. It kept me wonder for a while with my wild guessing.

We wanted to see each other again, but it never happen...we continued in blog world and cyberspace...and keep on asking each other when to have a cuppa again...

Now, she has gone back to where all of us shall be back. Just that her time has come earlier than all of us.

To my dearest Kak Ruby, may your soul rest in peace and we will miss you much..

Anggerik2005
March 18, 2010
1:37 pm