Sunday, April 20, 2008

A note on Madness and anger

Something happen during the week that make me really angry and pissed-off with HR or capability management. I was really really angry … and this thing makes me become so determined to fight for what I am worth for. All I know I am not a greedy type but if I felt that it was too much …then I lost my tolerance. After few days, I am still having this burning heart and anger inside me. Difficult to calm down and to control. I tried hard to control my anger because of their mistake and stupid thing.

Ya Allah please help me to defend what I am worth for in a professional way rather than with emotional outburst. I try to control and overcome the anger and madness in me. Never had I felt through out my career such a feeling. I have more challenging things ahead of me to kick – off something new in the company and to present to Mr President and the team up there. I do not want to wish this madness and anger in me disturbs my composure and professionalism. I will try hard to overcome it. I need to wisely strategise myself to be able to stand and defend for what my value is. At the same time I have to keep other options in hand in case I decided to say “goodbye” and enough is enough…I need to earn my living and support my family. I pray that Allah give me strength to go on…

I need calm, compose and assertive… think only on the positive feedback from others to keep me going and capitalize on my talents and strength. I want to feel gooddd...

....My current state of mind.

Will be back with beautiful pictures from Bali to ease the anger and madness.

Something I read from Psychologies magazine issue April 2008:

When Archetypes can help you get what you want:

LETTING GO AND STARTING OVER - THE DESTROYER
Whether you are dealing with a relationship break-up or recovering from an illness or addiction, embodying the Destroyer will remind you that change is part of life, and give you the strength to let go and start over.

LIVING IN THE MOMENT - THE JESTER
When you or those around you are getting caught up in the stress and anxiety of modern life, the Jester reminds you to enjoy life and live in the moment. The Jester encourages you to approach problems with a child-like excitement and use laughter to connect with others.

EMBRACING NEW CHALLENGES - THE SEEKER
Whether you dream of climbing the career ladder or the Himalayas, the Seeker connects you with your adventurous spirit. The Seeker relishes new experiences as opportunities to uncover their potential and carve out a truly unique identity.

5 comments:

Anonymous said...

banyakkan bersabar AM. jangan stress sangat, not good for you, but do fight for you right.

can't wait to see/read about your bali holiday...i love bali, been there 3x already.

hajjah N

D said...

banyakkan beristighfar... sabar! hehehe. the way to sabar is (in wudhuk) to sit if standing, lie down if sitting. if all tak jalan jugak, tonggeng je la.. LOL.

on a serious note, go Am go!!

AuntieYan @ Makcik Blogger said...

Salam Anggerik... masih ingat lagi dengan Auntie??...

Banyaklah bersabar...actually Auntie pun tengah dok hangat hati ni...baru masuk kerja 2 minggu dah ada issue... :-(

Tak pe, Auntie pun sedang dok urut dada...mudah-mudah dapat menenangkan perasaan.Sabo je le!!

maklang said...

biasalah tu...hidup ni ada turun naiknya...InsyaAllah dengan berkat kesabaran yang ada, Oklah tu nanti...

Smile..you're on candid camera..he..he..

anggerik merah said...

hajjah n,

yes..very true. Tengah control ni..

ali pics coming up..

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d,

hehehe.. menguji kesabaran.
Yes...I will go forit.
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auntieyan,

salam. Tak akan lupa auntieyan. Maaf saya pun dah lama takberkunjung ke teratak Auntie. Selamat baru pergi. Semuga sihat.

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Maklang,

umakeme smile. Thank you!