My LOVE

My love, we have seen it all
The Endless confession,The rise and fall
As fragile as a child
Lately I'm sorry I can't hold a smile

But I stand tall to get by
No matter how hard I try to hide
Did you know I take the time for you
Did you know that I would see you through
Did you know that I would play the part
I must've made it clear right from the start

My love, can you give me strength
Somehow I forgot how to ease my pain
I know I'm right where I belong
Something from nothing never proved me wrong

But I stand tall to get by
No matter how hard I try to hide
Did you know I take the time for you
Did you know that I would see you through
Did you know that I would play the part
I must've made it clear right from the start

I would shade my whole life with you
Would you do the same for me
I would give all I am to you
Would you do the same for me

And I will stand tall to get by
No matter how hard I try to hide
Could you see I've been brave
Did you notice all my mistakes
There were times I could feel you read my mind

Did you know I take the time for you
Did you know that I would see you through
Did you know that I would play the part
I know I made it clear right from the start

To the LOVE of my life...

Anggerik merah
4:43 pm
August 31, 2009

A glance of Dubai

Anggerik merah

August 29 2009

5:45 pm

RAMADHAN KAREEM

Salam untuk semua.

Selamat menyambut Ramadhan. Semuga segala ibadah kita akan diberkati oleh Allah.

Ampun dan maaf seandainya ada yang tersinggung dan terkasar.

Salam dari
Anggerik Merah
12:12 am
August 22, 2009

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The above pictures, I captured during my transit (to Mexico City) at Terminal 5, Heathrow Airport. A nive advert by Nokia.

Life have been on a mix of slow and fast lane. Slow because my body need it to be that way and fast because my brain need it to be that way.

Responsibility at work is increasing tremendously and learn to say NO to some that I will not be able give the great impact. As much I could, I am selective in doing things. Maybe the feeling of nothing to look forward to is there...

Will be on business trip again in a week time. This time to Dubai for a few days. A good break I had for almost 2 months just stay around within country. My for a while lost fren said to me that he didn't envy my travel here and there. I smiled at him and said that "me too". But most of the time, it is not by choice. The work require it...

Family has been back in tack ... quite a lonley life staying home alone. Guess what... I jailed myself in the house even during weekend when my two men were away from home. I watched all my favourite TV... Oprah. Anjakan Paradigma, Forum Perdana, Astro Oasis, world news, CEO Exchange, All the wanita series.... Yes, I reduced my activities on computer due to my fibromyalgia pain from shoulder down to fingers... Activities on computers include the work related. Tough ordeal...Both my arms are not doing too well. My fingers hurts, stiff and numb at a time. I am not complaining and trying best to deal with it. Redha dengan ketentuan disamping mencuba jalan pegubatannya. Alhamdullilah..

As the climb get really steep in many things, I took a deep breath and let it go. Keep the positive thots in mind...

Anggerik merah

August 9, 2009

9:08 am

The Climb

I can almost see it
That dream I'm dreaming but
There's a voice inside my head sayin,
You'll never reach it,
Every step I'm taking,
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking but I
Got to keep trying
Got to keep my head held high

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I'm gonna to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing,
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes they knock me down but
No I'm not breaking
I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm going to remember most yeah

Just got to keep going
And I,
I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on, cause

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I'm gonna to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes you going to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

Keep on moving
Keep climbing
Keep the faith baby
It's all aboutIt's all about
The climb
Keep the faith
Keep your faith

Hadiah harijadi

Hadiah harijadi ku tahun ini adalah memastikan diriku sihat sejahtera. Appointment di klinik Datuk Dr Siddiq dibuat untuk menjalankan analysis menggunakan teknologi baru mammogram. Teknologi mengguna electrical resistivity.

Semasa sessi kaunseling dengan doktor, analysis menunjukkan ada hot spot di bahagian kiri payudara, belakang nipple. Mengikut physical examination oleh Doktor, tak ada lump. Doktor telah membuat kesimpulan ini adalah berkaitan dengan "Estrogen Dominant". Hormon imbalance yang menjadi punca kepada hot spot itu. Doktor membuat analysis hormon dan keputusannya hanya akan diketahui minggu depan. Untuk masa ini doktor memberi hormon cream yang perlu digosok dibahagian kulit lembut setiap malam, B-complex kapsul dan juga magnesium oil untuk merendam kaki didalm air setiap malam.

Semuanya ini adalah alternative therapy untuk dicuba bagi masaalah fibromyalgia, chronic fatique dan juga hormon imbalance. Pastinya, diet mesti dijaga untuk darah jenis O positive. Saya harus buka semuala buku untuk membaca apa yang saya perlu makan dan apa yang mesti di letak ke tepi. Kesibukan hidup membuatkan saya dah tak berapa kritikal dengan makanan yang saya ambil.

Fikiran saya agak blur buat masa ini memikirkan apa yang harus saya lakukan seterusnya. Saya akan menunggu hari Sabtu depan untuk mengetahui dan berbincang lagi dengan doktor berkenaan dengan hadiah harijadi saya ini. Apapun saya mesti menerima dan mencuba yang terbaik untuk bertambah sihat.

Kedua-dua lelaki kesayangan saya masih di kampung. Dah 2 minggu saya keseorangan dirumah. Hujung minggu depan mereka akan pulang.

Saya tahu saya agak kebingunggan dengan perkara ini. Macam-macam berlegar dalam kepala saya. Tapi saya masih meneruskan rutin weekend saya berbasikal untuk mengeluarkan peluh. Cuma saya kena tahu bila saya raya penat, saya tak boleh lagi stretch over limit..

Anggerik merah
July 25, 2009
2:25 pm

Blessing of another year

Tomorrow, July 23, 2009... blessing of another additional year of my life. Thank you Allah for all that you had given me....

I have less effort of posting blog entry due to my fingers which constantly acking... Once in awhile I became a silence blog reader to some spaces of my interest...and some short note to old friends. Other than that I tried not to stare at PC too much at night after coming back from work. Will see if my eyes getting better.... This some little challenges in life leads to deeper thought about life and the life after...

My wish list...

Keep smiling...be happy...

And some basic necessity of life..

Happy b'day to Anggerik Merah...

23 July 2009