Thursday, November 24, 2005

PMS........ohhhhh nooooo..

It is just in time when I need all my strength, energy, concentration to focus on what i need to do...and I have to deal with PMS Syndrome. Sometimes I m good at managing it but off late and most of the time I just feel that a lot of sleep, do nothing despite of urgency, drifting and wasting time has been the prefered choice...

The worst part is could not be bother of anything around me...Get so annoyed if people pushing me for the things that I know I need to do it but feel not in the frame of mind to do at that moment.

It is always...i stress again ALWAYS fall at the time when I need my best from me (i.e. presenting my work in the meeting attended by the gurus and those experience in the field)...and I always being seen make a fool of myself.......arghhhhhhhhhhhhhh....

I wish to change my cycle so that it does not fall during this time....Please, fellow doctors out there, help me to change my cycle...boleh ka? What to take??

Today is the worst day in a week so far on top of receiving not so good news......I hate it and at this moment I feel like to abondon what I am doing and just go back...what a loser!!!

Radio keep on announcing there will be a snow blizzard and it will be freezing tonite. It is 4 degree C rite now, but I don't feel that cold....wait until I go out there before reaching my sport car (ohmegod...my car sound like lorry now!!!)

Not doing much today. Leeme think...go back and forth to lab to get samples for analysis, met Prof. A to arrange for meeting with fellow colleagues who will be here next week. Then feel annoyed to my so overexcited officemate...because i need to be alone and don't want to be disturbed with foolish questions from him, like he can look up for himself rather than keep on asking me. He thot I have all the silly answer!! Simple thing like asking me while I am focusing on something... Is this yr book?, then when I stare at him, he realise that he can open the book and check if my name is there..Soory, this is not yours..he got the answer...this really make me sick! But before he left today, I talk to him nicely, and he left with smiling face...People with different character!!!

Ohh one thing, Jack came to see me in the lab, telling me that he will request for oil based heater for me so that I can use it in my office when it gets too cold...Thanks Jack..love you...if not I will be freezed to death when the central heating is not working especially during weekend..

What else....reply and sent many many official emails..The one email that make my blood goes upstairs and totally upset my body was my request for extension to write up has not been approved yet..need further more proof bla bla bla..Why they did not tell me earlier...sigh... I am exhausted.. yes really.. if worst come to worst I want to bungkus, abandon and go back..that is the last thing in my mind.

Ohhhhhhhhh....what a day................heading home now...

12 comments:

Queen Of The House said...

AM, the way you wrote, to me you do sound so muddled. Tak tau nak kata apa ..... my PMS is usually not bad. Managable, although I know it's coming when I get annoyed easily, my temper gets short, & I feel bloated and thirsty. That's about it.

Maybe you do need a break, tapi tak kan sampai nak abandon everything kot? Maybe it's just the gloomy weather getting to you.

Cheer up.

RojakBuah said...

lepak je AM...jgn difikir sgt...hehe..org ckp senangkan, anyway sy doakan AM dpt handle semua tu..

anggerik merah said...

QOTH, RB...I slept a lot...really alot..what else to do in this cold weather. Wake up in the morning hoping to sort out things one by one....Thanks for the concern..Love both of you!!

DEWA said...

Dewa pun PMS gak...asyik rasa nak penampar orang jer..tapi dah cabut gigi ok lak...hehehehe

anggerik merah said...

ehhh dewa pun PMS gak...hehehe...mushkil!!!


By the way, this morning...snowinggggg!!!..Lots of snow on the ground..Everywhere is white...so beautiful..

atenah said...

eh AM let's hang on tegeder geder. i know how u feel, kan we're in the same boat. niway i just want to plod on with the hope that satu hari nanti i will get to see the light at the end of the tunnel. dah habis daya, sembahyang banyak2.

anggerik merah said...

Thx ATN, yes my boat tengelam dan timbul..be togeder geder helps to boost up motivation! The rest berserah pada Allah.

Ikelah said...

u can adjust ur cycle with the pill, OCP. for the pms, EPO might help, but the best is always the pain killers (NSAID); arcoxia, celebrex the cox2 inhibitors. take more fluids and vege, regular exercise and most important u should reduce stress by having good weekend or outing. good luck. hehehe

dr in the house said...

anggerik, my hubby has beaten me into answering your plea...hehhe..may I add that you take something to come your nerves as well? xanax ke.
Take care but never give up!!! Never! Go Anggerik Go!

anggerik merah said...

Ikelah, thanks for dropping in and the suggestion. I take EPO twice a day and lots ot other suppliment. Like I can't leve without them if I want to sustain a good menatl and physical fitness. Yoga has been my exercise but abandon since summer. Will definately continue again. OCP can be found in pharmacy? What is full name? Being PhD student so much under stress. I believed everyone goes thru similar ordeal. No short cut to it. Pain killer..I never really take them except Paracetamol ( not quite painkiller!) if i need to protect myself from getting into severe flu. Thanks for all the advice. I really appreciate it.

DITH, wow...seronok dapat advice from the couples! Thnks for motivation. Sometimes I need to hear that when I am emotionally out of control. Like I know I cud not turn back...but going further is also a pain which I have to take along with me..No pain no gain..Insyaallah I felt even better hearing go and go anggerik from you and other fellow bloggers!! Love from anggerik

CikNi said...

ada satu petua tu kan- makan chocolate masa dkt2 nak 'time', our body sure need a lot of iron, yg biasanya byk dlm chocolate.

Ely said...

hi AM, i feel sorry for u. i am having pms too! change period cycle? if u take the birth control pills, yes u can change the cycle by not getting it for 3 mths or more. or shorten ur cycle as u like. but if not, no lah u cant change mother nature.

hang in there, u will be ok in a weeks time...huggs