It is just in time when I need all my strength, energy, concentration to focus on what i need to do...and I have to deal with PMS Syndrome. Sometimes I m good at managing it but off late and most of the time I just feel that a lot of sleep, do nothing despite of urgency, drifting and wasting time has been the prefered choice...
The worst part is could not be bother of anything around me...Get so annoyed if people pushing me for the things that I know I need to do it but feel not in the frame of mind to do at that moment.
It is always...i stress again ALWAYS fall at the time when I need my best from me (i.e. presenting my work in the meeting attended by the gurus and those experience in the field)...and I always being seen make a fool of myself.......arghhhhhhhhhhhhhh....
I wish to change my cycle so that it does not fall during this time....Please, fellow doctors out there, help me to change my cycle...boleh ka? What to take??
Today is the worst day in a week so far on top of receiving not so good news......I hate it and at this moment I feel like to abondon what I am doing and just go back...what a loser!!!
Radio keep on announcing there will be a snow blizzard and it will be freezing tonite. It is 4 degree C rite now, but I don't feel that cold....wait until I go out there before reaching my sport car (ohmegod...my car sound like lorry now!!!)
Not doing much today. Leeme think...go back and forth to lab to get samples for analysis, met Prof. A to arrange for meeting with fellow colleagues who will be here next week. Then feel annoyed to my so overexcited officemate...because i need to be alone and don't want to be disturbed with foolish questions from him, like he can look up for himself rather than keep on asking me. He thot I have all the silly answer!! Simple thing like asking me while I am focusing on something... Is this yr book?, then when I stare at him, he realise that he can open the book and check if my name is there..Soory, this is not yours..he got the answer...this really make me sick! But before he left today, I talk to him nicely, and he left with smiling face...People with different character!!!
Ohh one thing, Jack came to see me in the lab, telling me that he will request for oil based heater for me so that I can use it in my office when it gets too cold...Thanks Jack..love you...if not I will be freezed to death when the central heating is not working especially during weekend..
What else....reply and sent many many official emails..The one email that make my blood goes upstairs and totally upset my body was my request for extension to write up has not been approved yet..need further more proof bla bla bla..Why they did not tell me earlier...sigh... I am exhausted.. yes really.. if worst come to worst I want to bungkus, abandon and go back..that is the last thing in my mind.
Ohhhhhhhhh....what a day................heading home now...