It has been more than a week since my little man left with his big man. I begin my new life alone and keep myself occupied with many things to do..shifting house, repack and unpack, house cleaning etc etc..and finally look back what I had left as far as my study is concerned..
So much that I wanted to hold my tear when we were about to part at the airport, I failed to do so. My tears run through my cheeks like a bursting pipe. I wish I could be like the mother of children in Narnia. I kept smiling with tears and pat at his back saying that he is going to be alright without me for a wee while. I knew that he hold that promise that I make to him.
The night before he left, I had a lovely chat with him. I knew how much he didn't want to leave. I felt guilty inside me for letting him go and be away from me for a while, but I have to let it go. To make him happy and have something to look forward to...I said " Baby, make sure after you had your prayer, dua to Allah to bless me with money so that I could buy you the plane ticket and you could come back here to spend time with me during your school holiday ". He hold that promise very strongly. The big man did not know that we had that promise made. My lil man appears more contented knowing that he might be back here.
That morning, he didn't want to get up from bed and he made very small steps toward bathroom. I made a joke to him " Do you want me to help you moving faster by pushing from your back?". He said " yes mama, please do that.."
I drove my lil man with his 2 friends and also big man to the airport. The three boys sitting at the back had a lot to talk about. My lil man said to his friends.." I will miss this place a lot especially the smell of the grass, the fresh air and landscape..and I will be back for holiday" I just turned my face to the big man and smiled..
As the new life begin...I do feel lonely but I know that I have mission to accomplish and life must go on...I will hang on there and think about all the wonderful things which keep me going...
Sir Count and all my dearest blogger friends..thanks for your moral support. It does make a different to me...