When money is never enough

I was evaluating my paycheque and the commitment I had on using my paycheque. Funny that almost toward end of the month, I left with thin margin until another paycheque comes in.

What do I do with my money? Well…my outfit especially for office attire is most of them I can’t zip up. Seriously due to my horizontal expansion since I am back here. I spend quite a lot for new office attire. Never thought that I have to spend that much since most of my office attire was untouchable for almost 4 years. But the reality is that I have to start all over again from being a student with simple outfit back to corporate look attire. Not that I am complaining when thinking about how fortunate I am compared to others. Just that spending which I did not very much anticipate earlier.

It is quite expected to begin new life, to start all over again since most of the household was disposed 4 years ago. Being so particular about health, I spend quiet a lot for things such as RX water filter for healthier water consumption, Osim massage chair for massaging tired body, reasonably good mountain bike and accessories for maintaining stamina and cosmetic to fix my damage skin due to over stress during student days. Another necessities is new car loan payment, fuel cost with 100 km/day total distance travel to/fro office, toll, car wash etc etc.. All of these are a mix of must and need expenses. Of course all of this is after minus my personal commitment to family and investment. Of all this, I was reflecting how simple life was when I was a student and away from home country.

In my wish list, is to control my spending since I had what I need now, more savings and most importantly more “sedekah” to the needy. Insyaallah with Allah bless, I will work myself up with my innate talent, knowledge and skill to contribute more and also give away more.

This song by Ella really attract me...

RAMA-RAMA
Seumpama rama-rama…
terbang bebas diudara tanpa ada halangan
Aman damai…suka2
Riangria tanpa adarasa duka sengketa..rama2

Ekspresi dirimu menawan hatiku
Ingin aku terbang bersamamu
melihat karenah melihat telatah..
manusia yang sering telagah

Ekpedisi ini bagai tiada henti..
kan menjadi antologi diri..
Terhentilah mimpi terhapuslah sepi
Sanubari yang lebih berani

Terminal yang pasti satu fitrah hati
kerana yang sejati tiada gentar lagi
Terbanglah kesini mancari abadi
Terbanglah kemari mencari hakiki

Seumpama rama-rama
Melewati panorama yang penuh warna warni
Taman bunga taman damai
Dengan aksi lincah

berputik hidup yang harmoni
Rama-rama..

June 27, 2007