It has been a while since I last blog. Life has been rather in the fast lane with too many on the plate.
Anggerikmerah
Friday, December 11, 2009
Sunday, November 15, 2009
Teaching skill & being a mother
Last week was a rather focus week for me as I was involved in ensuring the course was running smoothly i.e. the students (company staff) really gain significant knowledge after attending this course. I also served as line trainer i.e delivering course on the first and last day. This was the first time I had ever given such a long course. Talking and stimulating discussion from 8:30 am to 5:00 pm. Brushing up my teaching skill was something that I love doing. Work and knowledge I had gather since 20 years ago which still retain somewhere in my memory box became handy. My mind always reflected several experiences and knowledge I gathered many years in the past. It was just like down memory lane. Although I felt easily exhausted but felt the satisfaction. My teaching skill needs some polishing though.
The course was held in the hotel connected to Hard rock café. I had never been to hard rock café KL… During one of the night, when big man and lil man came to pick me up from hotel, the three of us had our dinner at Hard rock Café.
Weekend was moment to be waited after a week of classroom event. I went for cycling and did house chores. Some moment of tense with my lil man. This makes me feel that I fail to be a good mother. I guest I do not have much patient being a mother of a single child teenager with mild autism. I lost the mother touch and understanding. A good cry really helps to release the emotion. Life is like that… full of challenges... a challenges being a mother
Anggerik merah
November 16, 2009
12:30 am
The course was held in the hotel connected to Hard rock café. I had never been to hard rock café KL… During one of the night, when big man and lil man came to pick me up from hotel, the three of us had our dinner at Hard rock Café.
Weekend was moment to be waited after a week of classroom event. I went for cycling and did house chores. Some moment of tense with my lil man. This makes me feel that I fail to be a good mother. I guest I do not have much patient being a mother of a single child teenager with mild autism. I lost the mother touch and understanding. A good cry really helps to release the emotion. Life is like that… full of challenges... a challenges being a mother
Anggerik merah
November 16, 2009
12:30 am
Wednesday, November 04, 2009
Stay back & cari makan
My friends and I had to stay in the office for telecon meeting with UK from 6 pm to 12 midnight Malaysia time. None of us would want to fly to UK for a short one day meeting considering too much on our plate at this point of time to handle in office. Travelling time would be tiring and takes longer time than to be in the meeting. We packed ourselves with 2 sets of pizza for dinner and stay on to participate in the meeting. It was not 100% efficient as compared to if we physically present there. But at least we get to contribute up to 80% would be good enough.
Today, I dropped dead in the morning. My fibromialgia with paint on my left side fingers came back since the last 2 days plus intense migrane. I can't really stand the rainy and cold weather. This easily triggered the problem. Hence my GP covers me with MC today so that I can sleep more and rest more as needed.
I must admit, it is too much workload to handle which in some ways raise my stress level. October and November seems to be very busy month in the office. Many times I promise to take things easy. But with so many official appointment given to me to participate and involve in Leadership team and several capability building initiatives really creates high stress level until I am able to manage it. The term some of us use..."cari makan" sound too familiar to me.
Anggerik merah
Oct 4, 2009 11:28 pm
Today, I dropped dead in the morning. My fibromialgia with paint on my left side fingers came back since the last 2 days plus intense migrane. I can't really stand the rainy and cold weather. This easily triggered the problem. Hence my GP covers me with MC today so that I can sleep more and rest more as needed.
I must admit, it is too much workload to handle which in some ways raise my stress level. October and November seems to be very busy month in the office. Many times I promise to take things easy. But with so many official appointment given to me to participate and involve in Leadership team and several capability building initiatives really creates high stress level until I am able to manage it. The term some of us use..."cari makan" sound too familiar to me.
Anggerik merah
Oct 4, 2009 11:28 pm
Sunday, October 25, 2009
Life journey
A week had passed. That 3 days made me reminisce my childhood memory, how I grown up to be who am I until now, the sweet & bitter experiences in life as how Allah had it planned for me. Soul searching, life role model, true happiness and the ultimate destination in life…. Indeed life is a journey.
It protrudes through my heart and soul…. It is a shocked that I was longing for a long time…. HE had made me see it true only several years ago… the detachment and the love is only for HIM. The rest is what HE had loaned me… That feeling had come and goes in this rat race world I am in. I know, deep inside me I can’t reach it out.
Thank you ALLAH for bringing me back to that moment… all my life YOU had determined my path in life. At time I was too weak to realize and to accept it. Always, I am trying to find an answer which was in fact already there in this humble little heart overshadowed with undefined and searching for the true meaning of happiness.
Barangsiapa yang berdoa pada-Ku pasti akan Aku kabulkan, barangsiapa yang memohon pada-Ku, pasti akan Aku beri, dan barangsiapa yang memohon ampun pada-Ku pasti akan Aku ampuni. (HR. Bukhari Muslim)
Ya Allah Ya Tuhan kami, Engkau lembutkan lah hati kami seluruh umat mu di muka bumi ini untuk mengabdikan diri hanya kepadaMu. Bimbinglah kami ke jalan yang lurus dan jalan yang Engkau redhai. Ampunkan lah dosa-dosa kami dan terimalah taubat kami.
Anggerik merah
Oct 25, 2009
It protrudes through my heart and soul…. It is a shocked that I was longing for a long time…. HE had made me see it true only several years ago… the detachment and the love is only for HIM. The rest is what HE had loaned me… That feeling had come and goes in this rat race world I am in. I know, deep inside me I can’t reach it out.
Thank you ALLAH for bringing me back to that moment… all my life YOU had determined my path in life. At time I was too weak to realize and to accept it. Always, I am trying to find an answer which was in fact already there in this humble little heart overshadowed with undefined and searching for the true meaning of happiness.
Barangsiapa yang berdoa pada-Ku pasti akan Aku kabulkan, barangsiapa yang memohon pada-Ku, pasti akan Aku beri, dan barangsiapa yang memohon ampun pada-Ku pasti akan Aku ampuni. (HR. Bukhari Muslim)
Ya Allah Ya Tuhan kami, Engkau lembutkan lah hati kami seluruh umat mu di muka bumi ini untuk mengabdikan diri hanya kepadaMu. Bimbinglah kami ke jalan yang lurus dan jalan yang Engkau redhai. Ampunkan lah dosa-dosa kami dan terimalah taubat kami.
Anggerik merah
Oct 25, 2009
Friday, October 16, 2009
Demi matahari...
Demi Matahari Dan Sinarnya Di Pagi Hari..Demi Bulan Apabila Mengiringi..
Demi Siang Apabila Menampakkan Diri..
Demi Malam Apabila Menutupi..
Demi Langit Dan Seluruh Binaannya..
Demi Bumi Dan Semua Yang Ada Di Permukaannya..
Demi Jiwa Dan Penyempurnaannya..
Allah Mengilhami Sukma Kebaikan Dan Keburukan..
Beruntung Lah Siapa Yang Mensucikannya..
Rugi Lah Siapa Yang Mengotorinya..
Angkatan ke -40 KL
16 Oct 2009
Sunday, October 11, 2009
Life without maid
House work is never ending and very repitetive to me. Sinking my weekend with house chores means less time for socialising and resting. We use to have a half day helper to do house cleaning but I am not very satisfied with her work. Many of my things "pecah" because her work style is so rough. I am looking for a new helper which can come twice a week and also doing ironing. Arranging to have one next week.
Yesterday another visit to Jentayu Spa to pamper myself.. The different this time is that I have to bare more than than usual during massage. It shows my deteriorating body after more than a month sans massage. Cycling do help to sweat and improve coordination. Much more work need to be done. I had enrolled myself for Celebrity Fitness Club to be opened next month just walking distance to a new mall. Keeping body and mind in synergy to keep going in life.
Anggerik Merah
Oct 11, 2009
12:17 pm
Yesterday another visit to Jentayu Spa to pamper myself.. The different this time is that I have to bare more than than usual during massage. It shows my deteriorating body after more than a month sans massage. Cycling do help to sweat and improve coordination. Much more work need to be done. I had enrolled myself for Celebrity Fitness Club to be opened next month just walking distance to a new mall. Keeping body and mind in synergy to keep going in life.
Anggerik Merah
Oct 11, 2009
12:17 pm
Friday, October 09, 2009
life goes on...
Still in the mood of raya. Full of Raya gathering at office and during weekend. Meeting old friends, new friends and relatives makes life more lively.
While the office work is tons and tons...never ending. Can't even re-distribute the work load properly. Meeting after meeting, workshop after workshop... make my blood goes upstairs when I feel so tired... Many NO coming from me. Forget about workoholic.... I am not....and struggle to get things done. Some new responsibility is given to me which I could not say NO if I want to stay in the corporate world unless I have other options.
But life goes on... and I am looking forward for weekend...cycling...
AM
3 am
Oct 10, 2009
While the office work is tons and tons...never ending. Can't even re-distribute the work load properly. Meeting after meeting, workshop after workshop... make my blood goes upstairs when I feel so tired... Many NO coming from me. Forget about workoholic.... I am not....and struggle to get things done. Some new responsibility is given to me which I could not say NO if I want to stay in the corporate world unless I have other options.
But life goes on... and I am looking forward for weekend...cycling...
AM
3 am
Oct 10, 2009
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